-----I'm back on this site because Kristen got me writing again ever since that movie I did with her. I'm writing this because I logged back on z! and there are some old familiar faces, and some new faces but generally its dead. I remember the hours I used to spend with Anya and James just talking, or the stories Kris would tell me while we'd play a match of HoC. All of those things are just memories now. Its been a few days now and it got me questioning why the ******** am I here. Then I remember its you, my book, the people who still bother to read this. I remember its Kristen telling me to write again.
-----I wanna write about things that make me happy. This book, I use it too much for therapy to let out my darkest and saddest thoughts. 90% of this book is pure angst and drama and I'm kinda getting tired of that s**t. I wanna write happy things. I don't wanna rant about my feelings cause I think no one wants to read that. No one wants to read about someone else's problems when they have their own lives to think about.
-----But the dilemma is I'm not sure how to write about the things that make me happy. I'm not sure how to make them compelling. I have a lot of guitar related entries here because I love the guitar. Honestly though, I think they're the most boring types of entries. Theres no flow, no suspense, no plot; its just me geeking out.
This place doesn't really help because everyone I essentially knew don't really go here anymore. So theres that aspect of loneliness, and I wanna write non sad things.
-----I've made a new friend though here, Grace, I just been helping her out on z! getting her quests done. And I found goofball to be extremely fun, yet frustrating. Those are cool and what not, but I'm not sure if they'd make the most interesting things to read. I'm working on a new film short, similar to PostScript based of off an entry I wrote here. It's surprisingly one of my lighter non dramatic ones, in a way its funny. Maybe thats it, I just need to learn how to write comedy.
-----Based on my previous entry I think I'm also gonna start writing about Memories that aren't mine, stories of other people perhaps. Hopefully some of them could be funny. I'm just rambling at this point
Thanks for reading, Anikacy Out
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