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------I discovered two days ago that my mom got tested positive for covid-19. The day after, I started having muscle aches, chills and, sore throat. I am very fortunate that I can still taste and smell but I have a strong inclination they will vanish in a couple of days. So I've been doing my best to try to eat good food and savor food. I had this big box of Ferrero Rocher from Costco that I finished in three days. It's hard to eat and swallow sometimes though because It feels like someone punched my throat.

------I went to get tested yesterday but I'm pretty sure I already know the answer will be positive too. Here in the U.S there is a death toll of at least four thousand deaths a day. I think that's kinda sad considering we're a first world country. I don't think I'll survive this to be honest. Chicken soups, ginger tea, salt water rinses, 1000mg vitamin C tablets among other home treatments can only get you so far. It doesn't help that I lost my health insurance last year. I think I'll be a statistic by February or March. I'm not sad though. I don't have any regrets in life as of now. I will exit this world peacefully. I'd only wish I would at least survived and gotten to see Phoebe or Sze Yi in person, but thats highly unlikely.

------I want to spend my money to be honest. Go on a big expensive treat yourself day. Purchase myself another guitar or something. I want a new guitar but not really. I don't know what to spend money on. I considered food, but seeing as how I think my taste and smell will disappear soon, I feel like that would be a waste. Shame I'd never get to try foods that I've always wanted to try tho. Foods such as sea urchin, Japanese a5 wagyu, chicken of the woods mushroom and so much more. After all, whats the point of having all this money if I'm gonna perish from covid anyways.

------I'll probably spend my final days playing z! not a bad way to go out I think. After all, my friends make me happy. I like to think I'm friends with everybody. I guess I'll have this book as my legacy as well as my music, and my discord server with ruffles. I hope I'll still be remembered even after I expire but, theres this quote from Westworld of:

"You only live as long as the last person that remembers you."

So I guess I'll have this book then. Thanks for reading, Anikacy out.