------I'm forgetting what its like to be me. The world doesn't feel real anymore and I feel like I'm living a simulation. I have long accepted that I'm Ani and Ani is a part of me but I feel like I've been living as Ani for far too long. I'm forgetting what the real me is. The lines are getting blurrier and blurrier by the day. Sierra told me that I shouldn't live like this because its a clear and easy way to go through dissociation. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know what I'm doing with my life anymore. I'm not even sure who I am anymore, even though I know that I'm Ani.
------She told me it makes her uncomfortable, and that it bothers her that I'm who I am. I'm not sure why but that hurts, it's like she's denying a part of my existence.
------Who am I again? Anika Anna Merciacev? Who? Anikacy, signing out
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