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------Perhaps I've been doing this a lot to everyone who I've lost. That some how If I write about you, you will be immortalized in my thoughts, and perhaps even for the future generations who would read this. That somehow I'm casing the last pieces of my memories about you, and placing them in a treasure chest; Where I will always remember you.

------I don;t even know if I can continue writing this without breaking down. Because among everyone who I've lost so far, everyone who I have felt indifferent to. You were the closest. I sorta wish, that somehow in your final moments, I would have at least have made it worth while. Maybe its fate, that I wasn't there. Is it possible that I myself, is feeling a bit jealous, that you were able to escape this beautiful world. I just wanna be reunited with someone I love. Please if you see her on the other side. Give Ani my regards.

------I sorta wish you're still alive today Ash, I'd hire you as a photographer and perhaps even help me document my thoughts out there. Is it sad, that I still think you're the best photographer I know. And I have a whole album of pictures from our 8th grade dance, that I forgot to publish. But not like it matters anymore isn't it? Do you remember that time, when I was so afraid of the world but somehow you managed to get me to walk to you half way towards your place, because I did like you. I sorta wished that I had manned up and walked you all the way home. I guess my pathetic justification of being robbed a following days back, and somehow it planted paranoia in my mind; just doesn't count anymore. Because I somehow wish that I could have at least spent at least every moment fixing mistakes, and I wish I haven't broken your heart, because I was ******** shallow as ******** back then.

------Forgive me Ash, but I played with Islenia's heart as well. I don't understand why its you who had to go. I'm pretty sure I'd be content if it was me. For every heart I break, every person I use and manipulate; I don't deserve to live. I often wonder in my head what your final moments were like. I hope you escaped this world in a positive note. Please say hi to Ani to me, if you see her around. I know I have said that already. Until Next Time, Ash.

This is Anikacy... rest in peace, and I'll see you soon.