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------I'm pretty sure he didn't roll that way either you know. You're just a questioning ******** who doesn't even know. What do you even want? You do realize that you get in their way. So why do you even exist? I know you really really like him, as he was the first to find out, and he accepted you for who you are. I guess somewhere in your heart that really touched you, because you knew that once people found out it would be the end of you. In the end you're still Ani to him, that beautiful woman, who would love even if it transcends dimensions. But let me be honest with you. I don't think he likes you in that sense.

------I mean you've come to depend on him a lot actually, supporting him by giving him some answers on his existential quest. And in return you seek his company, whether its here in zOMG or LoL, so you don't ever ever feel alone. I mean isn't that your biggest fear? Being alone... But lets talk about that some other time. He was also there when you were being harassed by Rage, and you were confident to confront, because he was there standing by your side. A part of you felt like you're invincible and nothing could get in your way, because he was there. The only other person you got that feeling from was from that lady on the other side of the planet. And even he was there to help you move on.

------The biggest thing though, is that he helped you move on. In a couple of weeks, he helped you wash away a guilt that has burdened you for three years. Despite the fact that you tried to push him away because of his relentless questioning and bluntness. He let you walk those baby steps, and when you were ready to stand up, he pulled you up. And when he saw who you really were inside, he didn't care because... I don't know why... But that really really really triggered something inside now didn't it? You were supposed to crumble, wash, and fade away once someone discovers who you really are. Yet here you are, because he super glued and duct-tape your s**t back together because that's the kind of person he is. He is kind, and he is willing to be the emotional rock, to help lift his friends. He even says so himself. And because of it, you love him. Even if your feelings locked up because of societal pressures, and cultural pressures.

But why does it matter, they're both happy anyways. You should disappear, maybe for another three years...