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A collection of stories, thoughts, wanderings, and a bunch of fictional writing. A place to develop my characters or just think out loud... You'll never know what may be true or not.
Love...
I have been in the process of trying to figure out if I am actually falling in love with Jon...
And the thing I realized while I was sitting here is that I would actually give up anything in my life that I wanted in order to spend the rest of my life with him.
He doesn't want to get married and he doesn't want to have kids.
I want to get married and I want to have kids. But I would actually be willing to forgoe the kids in order to spend the rest of my life with him. Anything just to be able to wake up with him every morning...anything to continue to feel like someone actually cares about me.
I would give up anything just to be with him.
It was something I just realized.
It's the oddest sensation, this realization. I've never thought I'd be willing to make concessions like that...but I don't care. I just want him.
Things will work out the rest of the way.
And I don't feel that panic about the fact that I need to make sure to keep him interested in me...I just feel like we will continue along life together...
I dunno.
It's weird. I can't really describe it.
Does this makes sense???
What is happening to me??????






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Nazi Halo
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commentCommented on: Mon May 02, 2005 @ 09:27pm
Sounds a lot like love to me. biggrin heart
But even when I was in love I wasn't thinking about marriage or kids or giving up things for him. I just knew that I loved him, as a friend, as a person and as a man. I even knew that we wouldn't be together forever, I just knew I loved him.
I'm very cynical and cautious about things like "the rest of my life" or marriage or kids. The way I think is probably different than the way you think.


commentCommented on: Mon May 02, 2005 @ 09:31pm
Probably is true. I worry about the future too much, which is odd, since I don't want to get married for a long time. It is just one of those things where I am realizing I never want to let him go. I don't want him to ever find anyone else. Because he is one of those rare guys who I think would do anything for me, and I'd do anything for him now.
It really does sound like love, doesn't it??
*Sigh*
It is wondrous.



wilderness.magic
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Jester 42
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commentCommented on: Mon May 02, 2005 @ 09:56pm
congrats! biggrin heart i am truly happy for u, i think i have fallen in love too so good luck to us both


commentCommented on: Mon May 02, 2005 @ 11:54pm
Jester 42:
Thank you so much!
I am really hoping things work out...and good luck to you too!



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jene-chan
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commentCommented on: Sat Jun 25, 2005 @ 05:45am
I agree w/ Nazi Halo and yes congradulations I am so happy for you.


commentCommented on: Sat Jul 02, 2005 @ 12:23am
jene-chan:
Every day I find myself falling more and more in love with him. My only worry is that he will one day discover I am not as wonderful as he once thought I was and I will lose him, which would be so devastating to me. I don't think I could survive without him by my side. I love him so much.



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pavel_the_rocker
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commentCommented on: Sat Jul 02, 2005 @ 01:17am
good luck biggrin


commentCommented on: Tue Jul 12, 2005 @ 10:05pm
nothing is happening to you. you're just in love like i am. biggrin heart



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Starluvr
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commentCommented on: Fri Dec 29, 2006 @ 12:35am
lol. .it definitely makes sense.. and yea, it's love right there.

Let's just say that his views on kids may change in the future.. both of you are still young. but i do hope everything works out (right here, I have to read on to find out blaugh lol) Because when i meet people who has fallen in love and know that that person is right for them, i hope that they will stay together forever because I hate the relationships I see today... where it's like a game to most.. just get together and break up.. what kind fo relationship is that? confused So, i wish you both happiness! heart


commentCommented on: Sat Dec 30, 2006 @ 10:02pm
Thanks everyone for the well wishes!

Starluvr: I know. I love him dearly. And it is true...I'd give up a lot to be with him. And I still feel the same way. Kids are something we'd figure out later. It's too early to consider that.



wilderness.magic
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