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A collection of stories, thoughts, wanderings, and a bunch of fictional writing. A place to develop my characters or just think out loud... You'll never know what may be true or not.
A Long Battle Resolved
So I realized recently that the last thing in my journal makes Soren sound like a scumbag and cad, which he was at that time, but since he's gotten a few hate PMs, I think it is high time I updated my journal with a new recount of events. By the way, to all of you who supported me, I thank you greatly. It's always good to have friends when you've reached a low point in your life.

To move on, Soren, after dumping me in June and a week before my birthday, suddenly found himself unable to live without me. Quite literally I believe. Even though he told me he didn't love me, somehow that didn't quite ring true for me. I didn't really think I could have lost him completely. So despite the fact that I was 2,000 miles away on a training excursion, he calls me to tell me he misses me. While not quite in those terms, it worked. I still loved him and missed him and even though we were both scared, it was time to put that behind us. We figured out that together, life wasn't nearly so scary as it was alone. In fact, over one online conversation, Soren told me he (finally) was ready to start thinking of making that lifelong committment...he told me he could see us getting engaged within a year. And considering Soren's absolute fear of marriage for the course of our two year long relationship, I didn't expect this to be coming from him barely a week into our restarting our relationship. But, I'm excited now. And waiting. We'll see where that goes. But then he did something crazy. He decided to surprise me by flying out to see me.

Luckily I found out about that. I was in the midst of an intensive training session for my job and his arrival would have caused some major uproars in my life...not a good way to try to restart a relationship. He took a vacation instead and like something out of the movies, we met at the airport. It was wonderful. It was like he had never left and at the same time, like I hadn't seen him in years. It was almost 8 weeks. He picked me up and spun me around before planting a huge kiss on me. It was hard to let him go, but we started to work things out.

Now, life is much better. We've calmed down a bit in our relationship. It's no long so hard when we can't see each other as often as we'd like. While I love him to death, I also can survive on my own. My life doesn't revolve around him. I think he still has some growing to do, but I think with time that will come. I hope. I do worry a lot sometimes, but then, when he holds me in his arms in just that way and kisses my forehead...the world is right. I can't imagine life with anyone else. I love him dearly and am so glad he is back. I didn't know if he would ever come back, but somehow, he did. And he loves me. And tried very hard (most of the time) to make up for the horrible things he did over the summer. So, I'm happy. And he's wonderful.

To those of you entering mid-story, the remainder is chronicled in my journal for posterity. It traverses from the beginning of this twisted relationship to...well, today's entry. Almost three years of history there. I don't write every day. Or even every month. So please take a look. I love getting comments on my journal, past and present pages. And feel free to PM me! I love hearing people's ideas on my writing.

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commentCommented on: Thu Jan 03, 2008 @ 01:37am
This is such a sweet story, well you get what I mean. "He picked me up and spun me around before planting a huge kiss on me." It's like a beautiful romance story that for, some odd reason, keeps reminding me on Titanic.. But anyways I'd really like so see how the relationship between you two goes in the next few months.. Maybe I'm just being nosey.. lol

commentCommented on: Sun Jan 13, 2008 @ 09:38pm
Wow, that was touching!

I must read the rest of your journal. It makes me feel like I'm reading a fiction-romance-book!

Not fiction, real, not a book, real words. I love the way you've written everything and how it falls together. <3

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commentCommented on: Mon Jan 21, 2008 @ 06:45am
Wow... xD I've just finished reading through the whole journal and your story reminds me a bit of a fiction one (but real life of course).

I glad you two are back together again!

And your writing is good. xD I'm a fanfiction writer, but I havent been writing much lately...

commentCommented on: Mon Jan 28, 2008 @ 04:04am
Wow, it's emotional, romantic, I love it! heart

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commentCommented on: Mon Jan 28, 2008 @ 11:52pm
Cool story.
I like it very much I read the next thing. It's great.

commentCommented on: Tue Jan 29, 2008 @ 03:40am
thank god :pheew: i knew it wouldn't be over for good (:

may long life prosper for the both of you.

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Kiei Sadame
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commentCommented on: Sat Feb 09, 2008 @ 11:14pm
Instead of leaving a comment for each of your journal posts, I went through and read them all...sort of (I skipped your list of commons you wanted for the time being since that was out of context ^.^;; ). I must say, I'm really glad for you. You and Soren have been through a lot with both each other and individually. A lot like my boyfriend and I who I've made my mistakes with in our long one year road together. Haha, and I know exactly what it's like to fawn over the man I love during the most inopportune times. It's true that it's an amazing feeling and gift when you and the one you love come to that final conclusion that you're meant for each other. I used to be one that didn't fall for all of the 'lovey dovey' mumbo jumbo. But your story (both of them, the novel was quite catching for me too) shows that when you want something enough, you can get it with time and a bit of effort. I truly want to say congrats for your wonderful relationship. If anyone I've met fits this discription as much as my grandparents did, it is you and your Soren: "I don't love you because I need you, I need you because I love you"

Good luck on the future of your relationship. ^.^

commentCommented on: Mon Feb 18, 2008 @ 09:29pm

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commentCommented on: Tue Mar 18, 2008 @ 12:45am
Wow that's sad. But then it's happy! heart

commentCommented on: Mon Apr 07, 2008 @ 04:49pm
so sweet storie you got some good grammers biggrin

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commentCommented on: Mon Jun 30, 2008 @ 04:13am
"one day, ur life will flash b4 ur eyes, so make sure it's worth watching."

omg! that is so sad but romantic! lols. i cant believe that he decided to dump you a week before your birthday! that's so sad!! sad but im glad he came back and that you guys worked everything out. that's really sweet of him! you guys did get married at the end, if im correct, and a happy ending!

"lookin' back @ the beginning of this and how life was, just u and me and love and all of our friends livin' life like an ocean. now the current's slowly pulling me down, it's gettin' harder to breathe, it won't be long and i'll b goin' under, can u save me from this? cuz it's not my time, im not goin', there's a fear in me, it's not showin'."

commentCommented on: Sun Jul 06, 2008 @ 03:24am
your writing is very good biggrin keep writing more interesting tales.

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commentCommented on: Fri Mar 27, 2009 @ 11:08pm
My husband and I went through a very similar ordeal, we broke up and then realized we couldn't be apart, It strengthened us..I'm happy it worked out that way for you as well

commentCommented on: Tue Apr 28, 2009 @ 09:55pm
AWW i kno how it feels to be in a LDR. My hubby is in the Navy and he was away from me for a long time and that being reunited at the airport thing... oh its the greatest isnt it? even though you know that you will have to see him walk away eventually. Worse feeling in the world. I cry everytime and we still have a loooong time in the Navy yet so i'll be living that a lot more. crying But relationship take a lot of work and im so very glad that you worked it all out. God bless, hon and no worries if its meant to be it will all work out. heart

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Kokorai Chan
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commentCommented on: Tue Jun 26, 2012 @ 06:07am
I am happy thst everything turned out for the best.You to both desrve eachother and no one else. This is wat true love is like and im glad you found that special person u can spend the rest of ur life with.

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