You think the thoughts of suicide stopped after that day? Well you're wrong.
I know you're ashamed of me.
I hate myself.
I know everyone else hates me even you.
I know everyone would be better off without me.
I don't understand how you keep "forgetting" to say goodnight to me but not to him.
I don't feel like I was ever good enough for you.
I constantly try to get your attention all it takes him is a call.
Is there anything I can do to get your attention at all?
You want a hug from him, I wanted one from you.
Please tell me is there anything I can do?
I've always been this depressed you just never noticed.
Whenever you turn around I make a frown.
I rip out my hair but i know you don't care.
I have stretch marks everywhere but I know you don't care.
I know they are my sins what person my age has them?
I try talking to you, you turn away.
Do you really think Grandpa would be proud of you today?
I know you're only proud of me for leaving you alone but that's because you're always on the phone.
I know you want me to leave.
You've said it so many times.
It hurt really bad when you said such things.
Now in my head forever shall they ring.
i have no one but myself which really sucks.
I know if I asked you to stay up with me you'd yell, saying you are tired.
But you'll stay up a good while on the phone.
And if my nerves bother me i have to deal with them alone.
Even though the bad ones make me want to kill myself.
I want your attention can't you see that?
Will it take me to harm myself? I think it just may be that.
WHY CAN'T I GET YOUR ATTENTION?
- Title: Attention (PLEASE READ DES)
- Artist: That Kid You Ignore
- Description: My mom started dating again and when she dates she always brings home an abusive guy and she pays more attention to them than me this is about how it makes me feel and some of the things I go through. This is a mule and I just had to get this out, even if it's not that poetic or good.
- Date: 05/03/2009
- Tags: attention