• Kids K-12 ride a school bus
    Most college kids drive cars or trucks
    As for me, a college student, I ride the "Struggle bus"

    I have ADD, and I take it seriously.
    I hate it!
    It killed my dreams in high school, and thus far college too
    I know I know, I could/can still achieve my dreams nonetheless,
    but high school is over.
    I've never received an academic award before.
    Math average: C
    History Average: C
    Science Average B
    English Average: A-
    And one thing I was successfully great at was Choir (A)
    Yes I should praise my B and A- but I can't!
    The 2 C's over powered my semi-success
    I can't dread more that my GPA in high school was barely a 3.0
    Graduating with NO awards (except for Choir, and V Tennis), was shameful and embarrassing to me. Because when I was a Freshman, I was DETERMINED to do great and get A's and B's for the next 4 years.
    Wrong.
    I had NO chance of getting into the college I wanted (Northern Michigan University) because my GPA was too low. A dream, crushed.
    I ended up enrolling in a "Community College" Woo...
    I enrolled fall of 2012, it is now Spring 2014 and I'm STILL in prerequisites!
    Reason being, I failed MAT 131 three times now. As well as a computer class.
    Any online class or hybrid class is NOT for me.
    I am ashamed that I've had to retake it 3 times and STILL not pass the math class.
    I've tried ya know the basics...tutoring, extra studying, online math help, YouTube tutorials etc...
    BUT still I am a failure!
    No matter how hard I try, nothing is good enough for me to learn and comprehend the devil AKA Mathematics.
    Most kids that graduated me have their Associates degrees by now while I'm lagging behind because of my failures.
    I want to be a Hospice Nurse. That is all. 4 years right? Well at my rate, add 10 years and I'll have it. I'd be 30 years old by then and be 35 years away from retirement. How stupid/ a waste of money!

    On another note, I work full time; 40+ hours a week is a load and a half for me. 8-10 hour shifts a day plus schooling is a killer. When I have school, I tend to be tired.

    My mind drifts...if something doesn't trigger my attention, I'll often think of a memory, day dream, sing a song that's been stuck in my head, or yes get on Twitter.

    This blows. My dream job is on hold because of my ADD. It sucks! I can't afford my scripts so no medicine is being taken to do the little help that it did when I was on my meds.

    So I tend to wonder is College for me?

    Should I just hope and pray to be a house wife/stay at home mother one day?

    *sighs*