-------Never have I feel like so much s**t about myself. As I sit here on this cafeteria, writing this entry just to ensure myself that I'll do better. I know I will, I just gotta be optimistic, just gotta continue self improving, just get a little bit stronger and smarter at least by a tiny bit everyday. I guess I'll stop with the vagueness. I'm writing this because I failed my calc-test, and I have an upcoming Italian test in thirty mins from now. I know I won't do great in that test, but I hope I'll be alright. I guess I'm writing this to release that self disappointment about myself. Damn, I have really ******** up didn't I this time isn't it?
------- I just gotta do better and persevere! Find people to help me, and help myself. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, this feeling of worthlessness, I'm legit crying inside now. I just gotta keep telling myself that everything will be okay, that I'll do better. I just gotta keep repeating that over and over, and work on my mistakes, understand from it. I gotta do better, I will do better. Persevere! Persevere! Persevere!
-------I should have just written a poem, instead of making a paragraphical entry which has no structure. Because these thoughts are a mess right now. I'll be okay, I'll do better. Sorry for the repetitiveness of this entry for who ever is reading. I bet some of you are probably laughing at me and my priorities, and why I even care about these grades in the process. Eh, its okay I don't blame you. Everyone has different priorities. I guess mine are about me and my desire to self improve, to be stronger and smarter. I'll do better I know it. So I'll be okay, thanks for reading....
This is Anikacy, who will do better!
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