The Child About To Die

• Artist: Sentimental News
• Description: Well, this was inspired in quite an odd way. My mother pulled me outside not too long ago to see a gay child on TV who killed himself because people made fun of him for being the way he is.. And he had no friends. Plus, an old friend who I am starting to deeply dislike is very very very close to killing herself. And everyone knows it. I am also not doing so great. I have thought of suicide constantly. I pray for all those who are bullied.
• Date: 09/24/2011
• Tags: child about

I am sick of feeling this
I am sick of being told what I am
I am sick of not being able to find out what I really am
Their smiles are too wide
Their laughter is too loud
Their words are too hurtful
Why won't they be quiet?
They can't see the tears burning under my eyes
I asked mom what to do
She told me to listen to God
I asked dad what to do
He answered with apologies
I blame it on all of you
I hate all of you
I do not care for friends
Yet, all I want is friends
I want to be loved
The gun is too close
It was always placed in a overloaded pocket of feelings
Shouldn't I do what everyone tells me to?
Maybe, they'll realize they're wrong when I'm gone
Will they miss me?
Are they lying when they say they'd be thrilled?
Why do you hate me?
Why can't you understand me?
I can find my life story
And give it to you to read
Will that help you?
Will that make the laughter leave?
I just want to be accepted
Maybe, I'll be accepted where God lives
Maybe, God will love me
Maybe, I can accept myself with wings
Because I am not rising
I am sinking
Into a pit of self hate
Into a pit of your hate
I hate me
You hate me
I hate you
I want you
Pull the trigger
So it can all end