• 'I’ll always be there for you’

    Those are the very words you uttered,
    The day you left this world.
    I believed you;

    Who can I trust?
    I torture myself with these thoughts.
    Now you are out of mortal reach,
    I no longer recognise myself;
    Those cold grey eyes,
    Once so full of love and happiness.

    Why did you let yourself go like that?
    You left me trapped; so tired and helpless.
    Sometimes I wonder what goes by
    Day and night.

    I dare not even look outside,
    For fear of being noticed; I'm not the same.
    So again and again I hide my face,
    This torn, worn-out disguise.

    Never will I go into the outside world,
    not again without you;
    The sinful world that foughtus down.

    Dread turns into acceptance as my soul fades away,
    For now I no longer have a fear of death,
    But a fear of life.