• Idk what my meaning is i feel dead, but breathing its worse than anything. I feel heartless cold but i burn with hatred inside not me hating others, others hating me. It's like jumping off the empire state building you know ur dead before you hit, but inside you feel free. Feel like everything is gonna be fine and then u regret the jump cause now ur fine but before u can savor the serenity splat. And the thing is u would go back to the pain if you could save yourself mid jump and then you would find yourself jumpin more and more to escape the pain kinda like drugs or cuttin. So r u happy or sad u jumped cause you died but u also got what you always wanted.