• I’d give anything in the world
    To hold you in my arms again
    And gaze into your eyes of wonder
    But I know in my heart these ideas are of desire
    I feel this desire is pure and holds no doubt in the least

    Continuing my journeys alone
    I’ve met other people
    But I still cannot find a place to call my own
    I’m guessing that it’s maybe because
    My heart is still left unsettled
    And open to the world

    You once said to me
    “That all the love in the world
    Cannot compare to the love I have for you.”
    In a time when I believed each word
    With conviction
    I’d not have thought to respond with such words
    “The love in the world also has hate to match it.”
    Those words twist such heartfelt feelings

    My heart is waning on despair
    The eyes I gaze into now
    Are my own in a mirror

    I touch my hand to the cool glass
    Staring upon the figure that is my own

    I’d give anything to say three words
    Straight from my heart
    And apart of my very being

    You shed light upon me
    Lifted me up when I fell down
    Held me steady
    Like a small child learning to walk
    For the very first time

    My words linger on my lips
    I speak with hesitation
    My words aren’t so sure anymore
    Maybe because I was left with insecurity

    I ran off away from you
    Into a world of more differences
    Than I had imagined before

    My heart split open
    Rather than in two
    Each day I seem to yearn more and more
    To hold you
    And be held by you

    Cruel is all the illusions
    Fading in and out of my head
    Drifting in my endless ocean of memories

    I wonder where you are in the world
    I wonder if I’ll see you again
    Though hope rests on my heart
    I have my skepticism
    About what I truly want

    I let go so fast
    I didn’t have time to say goodbye
    I stepped out the door purely alone
    My back turned on your grief stricken face

    I know I can’t return to you
    I fear the worse of my sorrows if I do

    I’d give anything in my heart
    To feel that tingle
    That inflicted me each time our lips
    Were intertwined ever so gently

    But the feeling is fleeting
    Disappearing like smoke to air
    I feel your presence
    Even if it is in my head

    My reflection still is in the mirror
    Maybe I’m not so alone
    I can feel you in my heart
    Though I still lack a true home

    Your last words
    Were ones of calmness and peace
    I still hear them in my ears
    Even if I was tortured and hurt

    You are always innocent
    It was me who ran off
    You tried to give chase
    For a long time
    But I remained elusive
    As a fox is in a wood

    In times of grief
    I turn to memories
    In times of anger
    I feel uncertainty

    Why oh why
    Does the sun rise in the sky
    And the moon glow so brightly

    I notice that as days continue on
    My heart still calls to you
    With conviction
    In all that you do

    I may not know where you are in this world
    I may not know what it is that you do
    But I know in my heart
    Without a doubt
    That I will always love you

    And continue on forward
    As I know that you’d want me to
    I go and go it alone
    I may not take steps in stride
    But I do all that I can

    Each day is new
    Light shines through the clouds
    Or the skies are a haze of grey
    There may be rain some days
    Or a blizzard the next
    I seem to get on just fine
    Through thick and thin
    Hard and soft

    Even when I’m at my doubts
    And my words are short and cold
    I remember those words you said that day
    The words that are so old

    All the love in the world cannot compare
    To the love I have for you

    I hope that day I’ll be able to see you
    These words will still hold true
    And not be empty
    Like a box in the corner of the room

    Continue on
    As you used to say
    Even if the days are tough
    And the sky is grey
    I know that burdens will slow me down

    So I give it all I got
    But there’s still more to do
    I’m determined that one day
    I’ll return to you.