• i dont know what to write here.... my story isn't lyrics.... or a song or poetry.... its my struggle in life........ hi im alexis i am 15 years old and here to let out all my sadness...... 12-15-09.... my dad died...... which was yesterday... which means if you are reading this.. this was written the 18th of december 2009........ i dont know how he died... the only thing i could think of is alcohol.... and i think that he died from that..... his bad drinking started when i was about 12.... idk what made him drink so much... but he just did.... his ex fiancee at the time cheryl, was doing all she could to stop him from drinking... but he just got really bad... so about a few years later, cheryl left him......... then a few years later my dad started talking to his step sister... (they are related by marrage)<-(sorry i cant spell right now)... so they started talking and they got hooked up... then a few months after they met my dad proposed... and ever since she came in the family picture he has been drinking more and more till the point that he got sick and got mad at me..... then they started to argue alot, then she left cuz she couldn't handle it... so then he went to rehab to make it better for me and him... he went 17 days sober he wasn't getting sick, he wasn't shaking any more his speach was clear he slept normal... he was all happy go lucky!!! until naynay (my dads step sister) came back and moved in... she kept sneaking my dad drinks while he was trying to get sober.... she let him start drinking again... then when i found out that he was drinking again, i was about to take all of the drinks away, but then she was all like "no lexii that is only going to make him more angry"... theni was all like"im not going to sit here and let my dad kill him self"... so then she let him get over board..... then i moved out... and then i moved with my mom.... and it was going ok till i opened up to my mom and she called me a gay b***h.. so then i stayed with my grandma... then i moved from my grandma to my cousins.... then on the 17th of december 2009... i was in school and my cousin picked me up early... then i was all like... ok whats going on.... then she was all like... alexis your mom doesnt want me to tell you... but... your dad dies... i was like!!! WHAT THE FUUUCKKK!!!!!!i though it was a joke......... but it wasnt..... i saw my dad's dead body get taken away!!!! I BLAME HIS FIANCEE FOR LETTING IT GET THIS BAD!!!!!!!!! HE WAS 17 DAYS SOBER DOING GOOD LIVING LIFE!!! THEN SHE HAD TO ******** IT UP!!! NOW IM HERE WITHOUT A DAD!!! BARLEY A ******** MOM!!!!!! AND SAD CUZ MY DAD'S LIFE IS GONE!!!!!!!.... what do i do now.......