• At night is when im reminded of the pain.
    that happened so long ago but stares me in the face.
    i dont breath..
    the sea a blaze.
    Just to live. i face the nightmares every day.
    secrets,lies,betrayal, and in the end im alone.
    Forgotten and disappearing yet as clear as the eye can see.
    soon i will awake from this dream.
    I hide the truth,
    Frigid as ice yet has the heat to warm my body for some time.
    i taste the truth in my tears.
    reading the scriptures of gods word.
    A person by a bloody sink, falling into sure madness.
    Hoping your still here.
    I feel her still in my arms,
    Her last breath i still feel and her tears dropping onto me.
    Who am I? Mr. midnight a being who belongs not in the face of sure reality.
    I imagine her still,
    Telling me it will be ok.
    Her soul locked in a cold place.
    she isnt real,im not real, Tell me this is just another dream.
    I had so much to tell her to say to her.
    But she left me.
    salvation in the pure frustration.
    My screams below inside me. I see the imaginary light.
    Vampires,come to bite,were wolves come to play and and the devil comes to condemn you spirit at midnight.
    suppressing feelings for those who are dead. Angels drop from the sky.
    there holy bidding has failed and blood is caked on there golden wings.
    Holding the hand of child an then the sky turns red.
    Buildings catch on fire,the ground is to become of ice.
    As a demon takes off in flight.
    An icey tornado a hot sea.
    The wind feels like embers yet shards of all the was me.
    I fear ive fallen a victim to Insanity.
    Her memory drowns in me.
    Not knowing if its light, or the dead of night.
    everyday and every year mesh into my fears.
    I love the way she calls to me
    but she does everything but fall for me.
    Love,hope, hate? whats the difference it all ends in pain.
    My fears contain only the thoughts of one insane. A being who belongs not in the face of reality.
    Sugar flowers and candy thoughts,loving memories and lollipops.
    skipping threw the Lucio's grass. singing to my hearts content.
    The sun is shining in my eyes and thats when i see behind a tree.
    My own dead body, maggots cover all my limbs, blood shot eyes and deep scars that could turn the strongest stomach.
    My lifeless body is carried up to the heavens with a million angels.
    Only she can save me now.
    What is wrong with me?
    why do I see these things.
    The angels great my warmly, before the heavens transform into hell fire.
    Angels replaced with demons.
    Gold into crimson.
    My skin is seared off and the air turns to smog.
    all the dark memories all you said this is where it led.
    Just as a demon flies over head.
    I find myself leaning by a hospital bed.
    I see sickness i taste death.
    And i find myself as high as crystal meth.
    My life spirals out of control and I was left alone.
    i was dropped into a state of insanity.
    Not aware of the world around me.
    Instantly my attention draws to your face.
    I remember it so dear.
    I screamed so load when the Dr. told me your state.
    breaking down on my knees.
    Telling god to trade my life for yours.
    Please?
    i didn't know whether these angels were carrying me to heaven.
    or dragging me down.
    changing my affection drawing my attention.
    Say goodbye to my fears now there all right here.
    Take all my fears lock them up and walk away.
    Falling into your arms,into a thousand of my dreams.
    Then i feel you slip away.
    Your gone forever and i wont love another in this way.
    Dreams i couldn't fu-fill dreams,dreams i was left to dream.
    I was left to dream.
    I was left to drown in your hate,
    And suffer with my love.
    Your eyes burst open for a flash.
    You take my hand and cry.
    Before i feel you slip away.
    I watch your soul leave your body.
    i see you walk away and i try not to follow.
    I forget it all.
    Ill forget my fall.
    These angels haunt me, a constant reminder.
    Of what we used to be.
    A reminder of your past and present.
    i cry with the thought, then everything disappears.
    You soul is gone.
    My dreams have left,my tears have gone.
    And all of a sudden im happy again.
    Bright lights,and load music, swarms of people at my side.
    Im forgetting all that was you.
    And in a split second im pulled back to reality.
    IN a grass field miles of hills I watch the sunset and the horizon fall.
    I see our hearts break and every thing's done.
    I know today was tough but i have to live another day.
    Live my life as our memory.
    And then the beautiful sunsets on my clear insanity.