It hurts that my family might break into two. But I cant let that destroy My life completely. I dont want the ones i Love to think Im not there for them anymore. Becuz Ill always be here...When im in pain I go out and be overly social. So in other words go out with my fwends. But i cant block everything out just to have a good time. My mom which I swore in my heart that I hated i realized I love. She tought me a lesson Yesterday That Ill never forget. And I want her to be my best freind. She knows about my gaia wife and she knows im Bi, And she still lovz me <33
Ive told her everything That happend this summer. I love my family and I love my fwends. But I love Katie more then everyone else. I dont know how its happend but I guess That was supposed to happen >w<
Ive not been online much and I apoligize. I havent been telling people whats wrong. I cry myself to sleep not knowing what tommorrow holds in its palm. But I cant live like that. Im living every day like it was my last. And I want to always show the ones I love That I really do Love them. More then My life itself ._.
Ive been Feeling like this song, From Mariah Carey.
I stay In love-
Oh baby
Baby, I stay in love with you
Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive
If you don't know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds and I know
[Chorus:]
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
'cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you
It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gonna act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now
Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know
[Chorus x2]
I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love.
But I dont want to feel like the one i love Is slipping away >w<
So im determind to let her know. That I love her all over again. heart heart
