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Anger verses Love.


You make me feel like im dying, forever crying…
Would you miss me?
If tonight I where to die?
You told me to piss off, that im a b***h and don’t understand.
I wish I could tell you that I love you. But right now im to mad to say anything.
You wont cry for me, You would never die for me.
You wouldn’t miss me of I died tonight.
To occupied in anger and hate then in what I try to show.
That I love you.
You wont say a word u expect me to know what your thinking.
You come to me with scars on your wrists and then when I try to heal you…
You come at me with clenched fists. Make it stop, Make it stop.
Im going to die tonight like you told me…
Ill do anything to make you happy. And this is what would make u happy?
Once done I cant come back so I guess this is Goodbye.
This time I cant let it go, it eats in the back of my mind. This delirium is unbearable.
I don’t know whats wrong with me.
Here in the darkness I cant see myself. You wont let me out.
Maybe I forgive you after all…
Im still going to die but I wont die mad….
Ill die knowing I loved you. As the blood floods the floor, My heart still beats even thought im dead. My heart ripped out of my body you can now see all the scars it has.
Every stitch, every bruise, baby that was you...
Don’t blame it on me I’m setting you free.
Rope around my neck, I kick the chair from under me.
Im setting you free…
Im setting you Free…


Broken hearted and collapsing.
You don’t hear me screaming at the top of my lungs until my throat is numb.
I cant find what keeps me living.
Why do I stay here?
I can feel you here even though you’re gone.
You’re holding me down.
I’m chain bound, my wrists bleed and never stop.
Bones aching until I collapse, I forgot to tell you.
(I’m dead, I’m dead.)
Gun shot, stomach shock, Yes baby I’m very much dead.
Crying blood, breathing smog, Lost in a demoralizing fog.
You’re holding me down.
Why do I stay here?
How did I even stray here?
Broken hearted, Falling deep into that dying darkness.
I lay on the ground, and ill never be found.
God I wish I could run away from here.
Living in anguishing fear…
Gun shot, stomach shock, yes baby im very much dead.
You heard what I said…
Im dead…
Because of you…
Heart break, heart ache, Cant stop crying for living sake.
Im dead…

This is a poem in a way that Me and an old freind made a long time ago
Although at the time we where just talking... But I saved our convo and this is all we had to say... :

we are dark figures, in an unforgiving world of dissapiont ment and shame. the world wont let us in the light so we stick to the dark. and now we are only figures. empty shells of nothing.


our empty shells wonder the dark realm seeking a porpose longing to find out who they truly are.....to fill the void they have in their heart so they might have a chance to be whole once again


As they get close to the asnwer, close to the light, a powerfull force of darkness captures them. and puts them back into the shadows, ware answers arent uaslly found. or thought of..


so they fall deeper and deeper further from the truth and it all seems like a lost cause until the one....they one reaches them.....touches their soul exposes the truth and they come to realize their full potenial


Maybe there full potential, is less then they thought. but none the less there full potenial. and they Find the trust burried under the mask of deception. the decite in the answer is un cleer. and hard to see. when first thought of. but after a while the truth is what has been there all along.


the truth.....the truth will set us free..