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This is a Journal Entry i have in my real life Journal:
To: Katie

Even though you have caused me bloodshed and I have caused you pain.Our love will never diminish.I don't ever want to say goodnight. I cry during a fight and I even cry because im so happy to have you.Your my life,my love,my wife. Your love is like a nail. Once in abetted its almost impossible to get it out.And if it does get out there will be a mark so you can never forget it.Some of my friends say its impossible to cause one another pain and still love. But they are wrong. With the pain you endure and survive only makes you stronger. Some also say Because we don't live near each other,That is also false because i don't care about distance i only care about you,Im forever your girl..Sometimes I just wish we could escape this world. Because i dont need the world,I need you. I envy some people who doubt our love. Because they are the ones that have never felt,seen,or witnessed the love of a beautiful women. Ive watched your heart take the beating of a life time.Ive witnessed your anger,felt your depression and seen first hand your life style.
And none of those have ever given me a reason to leave you. Im stronger then that, And at first i only stayed to heal your heart but in that short time..I fell in love...
Ive been the victim of fake love one too many times. And so have you..I can honestly say this is the first ive felt real love. And i would try to explain it.But anyone that is in love will know Love is impossible to describe. Im not going to lie and say love is all good. That love is something easily witnessed Or that love is easily witnessed. A lot of love is painful but with real love you will not "always." Be in pain. And you will know when it is real. But you have to realize that no one is perfect. Me by far..
You worry about my life style,Parties,Sleep overs, and going out on weekends with friends. Ive cut a lot of things out of my life for you. But some things are just what Ive always done and always been like. I can be bitchy, But at the same time under the rage Is only concern,misunderstanding and love. So me by far am not perfect..
You perfect for me in some ways and in others a little rough around the edges. I wish that Robert would not insist you get laid or have your first kiss, when its not me. Or to leave me for someone he thinks will be better for you. But I cant change him or change the fact that he is there... But this is highly expected and ive some what learned to deal with it. If im ever overly protective its because everyone wants a girl like mine. If im ever mean its not intended or its because I care.
I wont ever leave you. I know you love me..But if you were to ever to love someone else more. Tell me. Because i would never with hold your happiness just so I can keep my own. Your life in my eyes comes before mine. I will never understand how i got such a loving,awesome and clever Partner. Fate put me in your arms and only destiny can break us up. If you ever wonder why i stay. Even though you have caused me pain Its because your worth it,I didn't go threw all that pain for nothing. I did it to win your kiss,to win your love,and to win your heart. Even when there were times i could have left you. I at the same time i couldn't. Because I need you in my life. I go threw the daily task of guiding,caring,,love, and understanding you.
And you the same for me. Even though you must take care of me more... You do an excellent job. I love you Katie and I look forward to love you for the rest of Eternity. Because i Will gladly die for you. But you must promise to take care of me. Because i cant bare this life alone and i wish you were here. I wish you could hold me,hug me,could kiss me. Which is why I will wait. For your presence..Because that is all i live for. You are so amazing. In the begging i tried to withstand my feelings. Because I was always taught this love was Forbidden. But i realize that no love is wrong because with love you cant go wrong. You switch my mood Instantly making me laugh and smile for hours on end. Nothing and No one can ever take me away from you, I cant stay away from you. I would do anything for you. I know you might some times feel out of place,But your the only one that fills the empty void in my heart You healed those wounds from past lovers. And i have the daily dead of still mending yours. The only thing is..I need you to know that no matter what you say,do or mean. I will always stay. And i will always love you. I need you to tell me everything, Like i tell you everything. Nothing could make me stop loving you.Im not saying that I wont get mad,disappointed or some what let down. But I will always love you. You could leave me for another tomorrow, But i would like you to know that what ever you have said,or done to this person. I would still love you and I will always take you back...
Most would say this is a weakness. But love is not a weakness its a passion In tensed strength. I don't want you for the ride or just so I can say im not single. But for the soul reason of needing you. Im trying not to cry while missing you....And this whole letter was just Another. I Love You.

Sincerely: Daija Aiana Daniels.