• Here i lay motionless in pain i think im going insane. What should i do god help me.......... so many thoughts are in my head. My mind says to leave you, but my heart says to stay. Why was i born, so cruel this fate. Should i have lived or would it be better to every one if i just dropped dead..... at least i would be with you.... i feel like nether of us have much time left. But you know when yours is comeing i suffer waiting for it to just happen. But I still have the will to live... what will i do without you. Were will i go without you. I dont want to live without you. I dont wanna live if i cant live with you in my life. I dont wanna breath if i cant breath into you. So god please tell me now what should i do, i just cant seem to choose. Time is running out and i dont care what you did anymore because i still love you, i understand why you cheated on me. you were alone and afraid. Im sorry i made you feel alone. I feel in a way its my fault if i just never loved then........ you might have been able to live. Why is it every one i love drops dead. Is this some cruel fate, what did i do to deserve this, but why are they punishing you. Why are they taking your life. Why cant they take mine instead. I should die im nothing but a devils child, god please let her live. I dont care what they do to me as long as you live, youve got so much more to give. I feel im fading now slowly dieing, because i know im losing you..... ive never felt this before....... it hurts so bad. The world should have killed me when they had the chance. But now all i can do is stay with you and when you do die.... ill pray for your soul and for it to be forgiven....... and in that prayer ill also say i forgive her so please god forgive her to but if you could please let her live i....... i need her.