• there are many things in my life that are bringing me down and it seems that life keeps handing me new ones. and i have had so many things i've taken for granted and i am sorry for that. but it seems that life keeps handing me situations that i mess up and oppritunites i do not take, because i dont know what to do about them. and these things confuse the hell out of me i dont know what i want anymore, and i dont know how i feel about anything anymore and it seems that i am slipping out of myself and growing weaker everyday. this is not a tribute of misery but more of a leak out of my heart and soul, i used to think that everything was ok and it is most of the time but as i get older i see that the world is scary and the future is scary but the hope i keep in my heart is love and i would like to see it take hold and captivate the world before we all go under.