• Dear John,

    You know, the funny thing is that in all our years together I never told you how much I cared about you. I mean, there were always moments that would have been perfect, but I just never got up the courage to do anything. The moment would slide by and you would still only be my best friend. The truth is, I loved you. I still do.

    We were in different groups, too. I was the nerdy girl who looked fantastic (if you don't mind my saying so) in a bathing suit, and you were the guy who everyone loved as soon as they met. I suppose that's why you had a steady stream of girlfriends all through highschool. Except for the last semester. I should have told you then, shouldn't I? But I didn't. Because even though I shared everything with you, and you with me (I could have gone without the details of your dates, thank you very much.), I still couldn't tell you my deepest secret.

    Maybe, in that last month we spent together when both our families went on holdiay to your granny's batch, you figured it out. God knows I was obvious enough. But suddenly you seemed to be speding every second with me, sitting closer than before. But that may have been my imagination. I wish you were here to tell me it wasn't, John.

    But the holidays ended. You took a year off for your OE and I plunged straight into university. The only things that kept me going were the almost daily emails from you, telling me about the fantastic places you were in, what you did today, even what you had for breakfast at one stage. I should have told you then. Even a simple Love, Katie on the end of my emails would have been better than just writing From, Katie.

    And now we can never be together. Because when you were on your way home from the airport, on the final stage of your journey, you were in an accident. You never reached home, never packed so you could go out to your granny's batch again with our two families. And I never got to tell you I loved you.

    They say you were killed almost instantly. That I'm thankful for. But I just wish that you were still here.

    Love, Katie.