You'll probably never see this letter... Or when you see it, you probably won't even read it... I'm not sure. But if you do, I just want you to know that I'll do anything to see you for one last time... Even if it hurts. And even though you've only been gone for a little more than a year it feels like it's been forever.
And I want you to know that when you moved away it broke my heart... And when I permanently lost contact from you... I'm pretty sure the rest of my heart burst into flames. I was mad at you for a very long time... and now I regret it. I tried to pretend you never existed... I tried to convince people I didn't care about you anymore. But it was all a lie... I regret not thinking about you. It just didn't seem right to me.
The reason I've been thinking about you for the most of my summer is because a certain someone reminded me of you in a way that keeps you in my mind 24/7. This person decided to torcher me by trying to convince me that he still knew you and I wanted to believe it so bad but, I knew it wasn't true.
No one as far as I know around here knows you anymore. Sadly, not even your best friends that miss you the most out of all off us. We all know we may not see you again but we all still have hope. We all miss the things you used to do and used to say. We remind each other of who you were and where you might be. And just like our memories of you, my love for you will never fade away.
I also want you to know that you were the one person who could truly make me feel better or good about myself because what you did and your opinion mattered the most to me. You were my best friend and the greatest guy I've probably ever met. You'll always be my friend. You'll always be on my mind. Your memory will never fade. I will always miss you. And you will always be the one to keep my heart pumping and loving.
If this letter said everything I want to say to you then this letter would never end. But what I want you to know the most is that I miss you, I love you, I want to see you, and If you see this letter and read it I hope I didn't make you feel like you've ruined my life or I made you miss me as much as I miss you because if you feel that way, don't. Because I want you to live your life not wondering what I feel or where I am. I want you to be okay. Don't feel the way I feel because I could never let myself let you be this way. And I'm sorry if you were trying to avoid my memory and I brought it back to you like some one else did to me. I'm truly sorry, and I hope you live life with out me on your mind.
-XOXO Marissa M.
P.S. Your still my Idiot, The Gully is still Our Place, And I want you to know I hope you come back home. Becuase I love you. It's truly true. I promise.
- Title: Dear Adam...
- Artist: xXRawr-GirrXx
Thank you guys for telling me what you think of it in a positive way and things like that, but this thingy is from forever ago. I just don't wanna delete it. I thank all of you guys for trying to keep my hopes up but if you go look at "Breaking Me" in my gallery you'll see what I feel now.
- Date: 07/21/2008
- Tags: letter story adam love hurting