• Do it once, do it twice
    Nothing ever comes without a price
    I've turned a billion heads before
    But I can't take it anymore

    My efforts go unnoticed here
    Yet around the world, they shed a tear
    They weep over themselves, worthless and jaded
    As the stars above find themselves fading

    Addiction grasps in a sinister hold
    Dragging me in with lies untold
    A shattered heart repairs itself
    As burning flesh prepares to melt

    Every kiss, every whisper
    Floating in the sky of silver
    Addicted to the grand design
    That I know and cannot deny

    Acceptance from a mercy angel
    My shattered spirit fills a page full
    Useless ideas and lyrics dark
    Waiting for the angels to make their mark

    Every hour I wait alone
    Every moment chills me to the bone
    Praying and wishing for the strength in me
    To rise above and grant you glory

    If only I was just a little more strong
    Then I could learn from the times I was wrong
    Page after page of useless words
    Mean nothing to this complex girl

    Angel above, I don't want a gift
    A miracle, or wings to lift
    All I want is the strength to find
    That all my pain was all in my mind

    Angel in Heaven or Demon in Hell?
    I throw myself down the wishing well
    I wish to know my savior's face
    And whether I trust his calling place

    If you are Angel, descend on me
    Grant to me your liberty
    If you are Devil, stay away
    I want none of your cruelty and lies this day

    Self-Control is my weakness
    It's brittle and weak like fragile glass
    It shatters and I'm left alone
    Like so many years before have done

    My gnarled spirit finds release
    Every few days, or perhaps a week
    The only time I feel accepted
    Is when I'm succumbing to my addiction

    Don't you see? This is why
    I beg and scream and weep and cry
    It's not your touch that drives me mad
    But the feeling of false hope inside my head

    A foolish belief, but one nonetheless
    As my need for healing and a simple caress
    Grows deeper and deeper with each passing day
    I understand if you don't feel this way

    Perhaps it's true, I don't belong
    I'm the odd man out in the passionate throng
    I'm the one you created by mistake
    An accident you didn't mean to make

    So why then, dear Lord, am I here tonight?
    Is it to find my way in light?
    Or is it to simply feel accepted
    To drive me from my deep addiction?

    Perhaps, dear Lord, we'll never know
    For the curtain has fallen on this twisted show
    This corrupted play with the sets all ripped
    And the actors setting way off script

    So, do it once, do it twice
    Create a child at any price
    I've weeped a billion tears before
    But with you, I can cry more.