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TLLF: Chapter 5 Part 3


Crushed Pride


“ We’ve recovered the scrolls Leader-Samma. Just like you asked, the mission was successful.” Sasori said strongly. Pein looked up at him, then at Deidara. The scrolls were spread out across the table showing the five diagrams to summon the beiju host.
“ Well done. I trust there were no problems?” Pein asked. Sasori looked Pein in the eye with a wooden expression.
“ Nothing that we couldn’t handle sir.” Sasori said. Pein meet eyes with Deidara and his eyes narrowed. Deidara looked back at him. He struggled not to look down and gave him a stiff nod. Pein nodded back slightly then turned back to Sasori.
“ Good. Your are dismissed.” He said. Sasori nodded then turned to the door with his partner. Once out and the door was closed behind them. They both let out a sigh. That was too close. They both went down to the mane room and sat at the table. They both exchanged glances and smiled relieved. Now that the mission was over, they could rest for a few days. The room was empty so the table was bare. Sasori pulled out a deck of cards and sat at the other end of the table. He began shuffling and deled out the cards to play Speed. They played a few hands then decided to stop. Now that they were back, it was kinda boring. The hideout was dull and dark, like always, and the other members seemed to be either on missions or in their rooms. Deidara found it the perfect time to be together with Sasori. After all, there was no one around and they were alone in a room. He moved over where Sasori was sitting and whispered in his ear.
“ Hey Danna, un.” He breathed in Sasori’s ear. Deidara turned Sasori’s face to him and prepared to kiss him. Sasori pulled away before Deidara had the chance. Deidara let out a whimper of protest. Sasori chuckled lightly and leaned into Deidara’s ear.
“ Behave.” He whispered before gently biting Deidara’s ear. Deidara lightly groaned and tossed his head back. Sasori chuckled a bit more and kissed Deidara’s cheek before getting up to leave.
“ Where are you going, un?” Deidara asked concerned. Sasori turned around and smiled.
“ I’m going to my room, I suggest you go to yours as well. I’ll make sure we see each other tonight, ok?” Sasori smiled. Deidara nodded and laughed.
“ Look who’s telling who to behave, un.” He said while he giggled. Sasori smiled, laughed and walked out of the room, leaving Deidara alone at the table. Deidara smiled to himself. Sasori would see him tonight. That made him want to hug himself, but he decided agents it. He sat for awhile, taking everything in. When he finally decided to get up, Itachi walked into the room. When he saw Deidara, an evil smile curled on his face. Deidara looked over his shoulder and saw Itachi. When he saw him, he stood up and started to walk to the exit, but Itachi blocked his path.
“ What do you want Itachi…?” Deidara asked in an irritated tone. Itachi just smirked.
“ I see that you’re still with puppet boy huh? Going agents’ Leaders orders. Not a very smart idea Deidara.” Itachi snickered as he waged his finger. Deidara stood shocked, but he didn’t let it show. He was getting more and more upset. What did Itachi want this time? Surly it would involve him, but he wouldn’t let that happen after what happened last time he was with Itachi. Deidara shuddered at the thought.
“ Just tell me what you want then get out of my way.” Deidara said sourly. Itachi snickered and walked toward Deidara. Deidara stood in place not wanting to back away. He needed to prove to Itachi that he was no wimp and he wouldn’t go running away. If Itachi were going to do something to him, he would fight him off, so he decided. Deidara tightened and flexed, trying to make himself seem stronger, but it had no effect on Itachi. Itachi stopped when he was inches away from Deidara. He then unexpectedly grabbed Deidara’s neck and squeezed the pressure points. Deidara’s firmness faded fast and his mussels quivered under the extreme pressure on the points in his neck. On reflex, Deidara’s mouth opened and his face was seemed pained. Itachi smiled evilly as he watched Deidara quiver under his grasp and pant for air.
“ You know very well what I want Deidara. You shouldn’t be so foolish as to reject me you know.” Itachi snickered. Deidara felt his nerves go haywire around his pressure points and he began to droop. His mind swirled with thoughts and pain.
“ I…I wont let you.” Deidara managed to stutter out. He tried to pull away, but Itachi tightened his grip. Deidara had no control over his body, he couldn’t move his arms nor any other part of his body. Itachi smiled evilly.
“ You can’t resist me.” He said. His eyes turned red and then swirled. Deidara’s eyes widened and he tried to look away.
“ Please…Not that.” Deidara pleaded. Itachi used his other hand to pull Deidara’s face back and looked into the blonde’s eyes. His eyes were spinning and he pulled himself to Deidara’s face.
“ You will, obey me.” Itachi said. He forcedly kissed Deidara. Deidara’s eyes turned red like Itachi’s. He felt no emotion, no pain, no heat or cold. His vision became blurry and he soon found himself on the bed in the center of Itachi’s room. His clothes discarded and Itachi, the same, hovering above him with his hair untied and the black locks draping across his shoulders. Deidara knew what was happening, but his mind was still a blur. He wanted to get out, get away but his body didn’t seem to be working. The time passed. Deidara was getting sick of watching the person he hated having his way with his body. It made him want to puke. Deidara noticed how his body looked. It was now covered with scratches form Itachi’s fingernails. The anger boiled in Deidara’s blood and he tried to free his body from being paralyzed. When he first tried, his body burned with pain when before he could feel nothing. Deidara became aware that the pain he was feeling was what he would be feeling if he wasn’t paralyzed. But he didn’t care. He wanted to get out and that was what he was going to do. He wasn’t going to lay around letting Itachi ruin his body. No, Deidara decided to fight back, no matter how painful it might be. He continued breaking the seal and eventually broke it. Once it was broken, he pushed Itachi off of him. Itachi’s face became shocked then filled with anger. Deidara punched Itachi as soon as he was up then put his cloak on hurriedly. Itachi made a lunge for him, but Deidara was to quick. He dogged then gathered the rest of his clothes before running out of the door. His whole body hurt him, but he kept running. He skipped his room and came tumbling into Sasori’s. The door slammed shut and Deidara fell to his knees, panting and biting back the pain. Sasori was shocked and very surprised. He didn’t expect Deidara to come tumbling into his room, let alone even in his room at all. Sasori put down his tools that he was using to make a puppet, then walked over to where Deidara was kneeling.
“ Uh Deidara? Everything ok?” Sasori asked. He kneeled next to him. Deidara shook his head and the tears started to fall.
“ It was…I-Itachi. He… he found me in the main room and he…” Deidara started to sob. Sasori sat there dumfounded. Itachi? What did he do? What happened? Sasori went over the questions and answers in his head. The one answer came and it made Sasori boil in anger. Itachi had taken advantage of Deidara. Sasori tried to hold back his anger, but he couldn’t stand seeing his Deidara in pain because of that weasel. Sasori reached over to Deidara and tenderly touched his shoulder.
“ Deidara… He hurt you a lot… Didn’t he.” Sasori said. Deidara looked up with the clear tears streaming down his face. He nodded and reviled himself to Sasori. The scratches, red markings and blood were still there. Deidara’s body seemed cruelly mangled and abused. Sasori’s eyes slanted with sadness and he gently hugged and kissed Deidara. Deidara sobbed on Sasori’s shoulder and he held Sasori close to him.
“ I had to get away… It was making me so sick.” Deidara sobbed. Sasori pat him gently on the back.
“ How about you take a shower… it will help. You can go in mine if you want.” Sasori offered. Deidara nodded but didn’t move right away. He held onto Sasori. His arms shaking and his tears coming down his face like a river. Sasori comforted him. He gently stroked Deidara’s back, talking to him softly, and kissing him gently on the cheek. After awhile, Deidara got up to take a shower. His legs were so stiff and hurt when he walked. Sasori carried him to the bathroom and when Deidara was safely in the shower, he closed the bathroom door. Deidara let the warm water run down his body. It felt so refreshing and it made his mussels loosen with the heat. Sasori stood still in his room. The thought about Itachi abusing his lover made him want to storm down the hall and beat the s**t out of him, but he knew that would only make things worse.
“ Damn it!” Sasori said to himself. There was nothing he could do about it. If Leader found out, he would know that him and Deidara still had feelings for each other. This made Sasori more upset. It was a lose/lose situation. Sasori sat on the edge of his bed and thought. He didn’t want to be over protective of Deidara, but what could he do? He sat there, thinking. Deidara started to feel better. His scratches were cleaned and his mussels weren’t tense. He began to worry about Sasori. He could already imagine how terrible his Danna would be feeling. He finished washing and then stepped out of the shower. He looked around and noticed his clothes were not in the bathroom. He had left them in the other room. Deidara took a towel and wrapped around his waist and opened the door. He found Sasori sitting on the bed. His head in his hands and his elbows resting on his knees.

“ Sasori, un?” Deidara said softly. Sasori’s head snapped up and before Deidara knew it, Sasori was standing by his side with a worried face.
“Yes Deidara! Is everything ok!?” Sasori said worriedly. His eyes were wide and filled with oncoming tears. Deidara looked at Sasori and hugged him.
“ I’m ok Sasori. Its doesn’t hurt anymore, un.” He reassured. Sasori hugged Deidara back. His tears falling in uncontrollable streams.
“ I’m so sorry Deidara…Its all my fault. I never should have left you alone.” Sasori sobbed. Deidara’s eyes widened.
“ Danna! It wasn’t your fault, un! You had no idea Itachi would come for me!” Deidara said. Sasori shook his head. His thoughts all pointed to guilt. If he could have just stayed with Deidara till he was sure he was safely in his room, things would have been different. Sasori parted from Deidara and wiped away his own tears. Deidara stood there watching him. His hand holding the towel in place, the water dripping off his hair and body, the cuts bearably visible. Sasori’s hand shuddered as he held it to his mouth, trying to stop the tears as he looked over Deidara. Deidara’s eyes softened. He wanted to make Sasori feel better. He didn’t want what happened to him to separate them from each other. Deidara put an arm around Sasori’s shoulder and walked him over to the bed. He removed the towel and reviled himself. Sasori was laid down and put under the covers, Deidara soon followed. He tucked himself under with Sasori and he lay beside him. He pushed his head under Sasori’s arm and he held onto Sasori with both arms. Sasori let the remaining tears fall and he held on to Deidara.
“ I don’t blame you for what happened Sasori-Danna, un. I don’t hate you and you didn’t have anything to do with it. It was Itachi and his sick, perverted nature’s fault. Not yours. Please don’t blame yourself, un. It will make me cry.” Deidara said softly. Sasori sniffled. He didn’t like crying. It made him feel weak and helpless, but when it came to Deidara getting hurt, it was the first thing to happen. He cursed himself and turned on his side to face Deidara. His gray eyes were filled with worry and he pulled himself closer to Deidara, being careful not to hurt him. Deidara’s blue eyes looked over the face of the red head, then wondered over to the lips. He would do anything to comfort his Danna. Deidara kissed Sasori’s lips tenderly. Sasori’s lips seemed to quiver, so Deidara kissed them harder. Sasori went along, his desperation being fulfilled. He took Deidara gently in his arms and embraced him. Moving his soft, wooden fingers along Deidara’s back. Deidara stopped kissing Sasori and then laid his head on his chest. His fingers circled Sasori’s heart and his other arm was wrapped around the wooden side. Sasori took in a breath of Deidara’s hair then brushed it with his fingers. They both soon fell asleep. Deidara’s soft breathing echoed though the night and the darkness of the room engulfed them so the only light came from the torches that lit up the hall. Sasori stroked Deidara’s drying hair and rested. Listening to the night and the soft whisper of the darkness. Deidara’s soft, rattling breath assured him of his lover’s safety. So, he slowly blacked out. His hair splayed across the pillow and his arms wrapped around his blonde. With one short wisp, he was taken away.