• Overflowing fear of my next breath.
    What happened to my life?
    Last I remember I was swinging in my backyard, only ten years old.
    Now i'm sitting in high school awaiting my final day here.

    I wish I could find what flipped over
    my happiness. I remember wanting to be
    like others. Being curious to their pains and discomforts.
    I think I made myself have things that I actually didn't.
    I built up a disorder by hiding under my covers.
    I scared myself with thoughts of others
    their opinions and my self pity.
    I remember small but huge lies I told,
    and speaking louder than I do today.

    I guess you are what you think.
    I just wish i knew that before I turned eighteen years old.