• I don’t want to wake up anymore.I don’t want to see the out side.I don’t want to see you walk through that door.I just want to be left alone. To rot inside my bed underneath these covers. Just to sleep.. I’m tired of smiling and laughing and playing along like everything is just fine when its not. When all I really want is to cut smiles into my arm and release all this….this ache? I don’t really know what to call it. I just want it to end. But I cant….i cant do anything about this