• I put on my eyes.
    And a few minutes later
    they fall out of line
    and run on my pillow
    a broken promise
    a hand taken away
    When I look in the mirror they get darker and deeper.
    A hole where my heart should be that sucks light in.
    And in the deepness is where my love for you beacons you in.
    And light fills my soul.
    Where no one but you will know.
    Just like before
    Suddenly empty with no where to go.
    Imagination broken again.
    Soul eaters tell lies and say that
    Nothing will stop me from loving you.
    And when I need you you'll be there.
    But you cant see me.
    Just like before, you aren't here.
    And act like I'm an angsty teen.
    But you conscience will keep you awake tonight.
    And my emptiness will keep me sleepless.
    A hole where your love should be is taken without regret.
    By my own imaginary consciousness.
    No one can see my eyes behind a closed door.
    Neither can you and you know
    I'm in silence except for my unnatural breaths.
    And my own whispering words
    telling me the words I wish I could hear from you.
    But I never will because
    You arent like that and I should just accept it.
    you're paranoid and ignorant and just what I hate about you.
    With those storylines you tell in your head.
    Barring me from the things and I tell you and I've said.
    That I love you but you dont see inside me at all.
    And you dont know how to talk to me.
    So another day I'll look up at the ceiling and see a noose.
    Until I get back into my own imaginary artists muse.
    And this rhythm is just like a waltz
    In a black dream-like state.
    So I'll dance until the day I die.
    And dream that I see the light.
    But it fades when I close my eyes.
    And tell me that I'm alive
    Cause someday maybe if I hear it enough I'll believe it.
    I'll find another way to love
    Just enough to stop me from feeling empty.
    And close my eyes.
    Reach in the void for those pretty words.
    And tell myself I have to just deal with it
    I've said in consciousness that I dont want
    to deal with it but I must.