• How could you have
    expected me to know
    What you were thinking-
    What you wanted me to do?

    If you had loved me
    Why didn't you say so?
    Why didn't you help me
    to find out?

    Instead you turned
    to a coward
    And instead of facing me
    You took the easy way out

    Now you left me alone
    With no-one to talk to
    When you pressed the trigger
    Did you ever think about

    What I would feel?
    What I would do
    when I lost my only
    friend in the entire world?

    How could you have been so
    Stupid? Idiotic? Moronic?
    How could you be so selfish?
    Is there no-one in the world

    But you?
    No-one else's feelings
    to care about?
    No-one you can hurt?

    You were full of laughs
    A child truly of the Sun
    Bright and giving
    us light

    You changed so quickly
    choosing Darkness over the Light
    Love was supposed to be
    a bringer of Happiness

    But not for you;
    It fed at your soul
    until Hate took over
    as well as Sorrow

    You brought that gun to your head
    and with thoughts of regret
    of what you thought could never be
    And pulled the trigger

    Splashing scarlet onto the walls
    A result of your actions
    the gun clattering to the floor
    Limp body slumping down

    When your finger touched the trigger
    did you ever think
    I could have said Yes
    If you had ever asked?

    That I wouldn't have told you
    About my newest boyfriend
    That perhaps you could have
    been my only love?

    We would have worked things out
    I'm sure we would've
    For we were best of friends,
    Weren't we?

    If you had loved me
    How could you have ended your life
    and left me
    Alone?



    -SJL 03.13.10