• You Drive me crazy...
    I don't know what to think, how to act or what to expect back.
    I've never felt like this before.
    I always told myself I wasn't gonna cry over a boy.
    Except no matter how many times I tell myself that.
    I always end up rubbing at my mascara stained cheeks.
    I never thought I could go from feeling so great...
    To so crap in a second.
    Whenever I'm not talking to you I wanna cry...
    And I know how pathetic that sounds.
    Except the reason I wanna cry is because I know you don't want me.
    But when I'm with you...
    E V E R Y T H I N G C H A N G E S.
    I wish I never told you that I loved you.
    Because then it wouldn't feel so awkward.
    But I did.
    So now you keep things from me.
    I don't know why.
    Maybe you think I'll get jealous.
    But I'm not a little kid.
    Maybe you were telling the truth.
    About it just being a name.
    But your names are always connected to you in some way.
    I have to wishes...
    One of them is that you would love me too. <3
    The other is that I wanna go back in time and never tell you. </3
    I've always told my friends no boy is worth their tears.
    And I never believed them when they said they didn't want to cry.
    But Now I understand.
    You can deal with parents who think your some sort of slut.
    You can deal friends that stab you in the back.
    You can deal with teachers giving you really high targets.
    And you can even deal with failing them.
    But when you know that your heart is broken.
    Everything gets so much bigger.
    If you can't have the heart at least have the brain.
    But when you realise you have neither of these.
    You can't help but...
    C R Y.
    I really wanna say that I'm over you.
    But that's just a lie.
    But I don't want you to love me.
    Unless you mean it.