• a single slip-up.. a big mistake,
    how many more must i make?
    b4 i finally learn and stop putting this at risk...
    a past brought back, present thrown off kilter...
    I've most likely ruined it all...
    now, now, now, just waiting for the final fall...
    fear of losing the one i have,
    due to something happening that should not have come about...
    will i ever learn to use that little mental filter?
    control the outcome is what i should do...
    because, dear Courtney, i cant think of my life without you...
    this single slip-up.. this huge mistake....
    by what im seeing, has you about to break...
    the past brought back returns to its place...
    but now, to fix it all has become a race...
    race the clock... run, run, run...
    if only this race was just for fun...
    a loss of the one i hold most dear...
    that is now my greatest fear...
    lose it all, lose it all....
    wait to fall, wait to fall...
    should not happen, should've known better....
    the more i think of it... my face gets wetter...
    tears, tears, streaming down my face...
    if only id known... could've prevented this time-bound race...
    the single slip-up... the huge mistake...
    the fear of losing you has ME about to break...
    the thought of you not by my side....
    a thought that makes me want to run and hide...
    a life without you.. its not worth living...
    everything, to you i will be giving...
    no more holding back how i feel for you...
    no more guarding my heart...
    i should've given it all to you from the start...
    i know this time I've undoubtedly ruined it all...
    and I'm sorry... so sorry...
    now i guess ill just wait for the day to come..
    the day you leave and i finally fall....
    fall back into the darkness, knowing this is all on me...
    if we do end... i wish your life to be lived from then on happily...