• bad memories...fill my heart,
    joking and laughter fill my mind.
    While i rememeber everything that happened...
    i still dont know what to do.


    my heart is crying with such sweet sorrow,
    "Leave and never turn back."
    My mind is gently calling,
    "Remember those good times...?"

    The inside voices.... trying to tell me how to live.
    I dont know what to think.
    I will keep silent...for i have not time to think....
    Not time to live. "What should i do?"
    I asked the creator.

    "Just listen to your heart." i sigh with deep emotion.
    going my own way for once...saying goodbye....all too hard.
    i could see him hurting enough for his pain.

    But this time...i gotta let go. I gotta set free...and fly.
    So i will leave you with a goodbye kiss....
    lips so sweet and and a beautiful song like doves on a koolaid river.
    squeezing your hand one last time my love.

    so now....they said i should listen to my heart...?
    my heart is now gently crying for him...so i have to stop it.
    "goodbye my love, parting is such sweet sorrow...for i will not see you tomorrow..."
    no poision on thy lips...but blood on thy hands... as i drove the knife into my heart...

    silent screaming, never ending pain...but you said listen to my heart...and it was worth it.