• how did i forget?!

    before i said:
    i'm childish for
    i keep on concluding that sooner or later
    you'll surely be mine..
    I thought crush was just
    a feeling of infatuation
    but words "FALLING IN LOVE TO YOU"
    never comes to my mind
    because i know
    and all the people around us know..
    that loving you is a big MISTAKE!!..
    but what else can i do..?
    you caught my eyes and heart
    infront of you..
    before i know you
    i already admire you..
    the way you dance and move..
    i always wanted to stare at you..
    watching every step you do..
    but suddenly i noticed..
    i hate your eyes..
    coz your stares are not for me..
    i hate your lips
    coz your words are not for me
    but for most
    hate your numb heart
    coz i never had the chance to be loved by you..
    but then again..
    my mind keeps on saying..
    "its just a crush,
    a feeling of infatuation"
    but my heart had the
    opposite conclusion..
    "ITS LOVE"
    "THIS CANT BE...i said..
    IM NOT FALLING IN LOVE"!
    but as time goes by..
    my feelings for you changed
    my sudden love for you just suddenly VANISHED
    but i keep on thinking..
    how did i forget?!
    how did i forget the sudden love love and attention
    i gave to you
    o guess i dont need to search
    for the answer
    coz i dont want a love
    which is made by a mistake in my
    entire life....