• You say you understand what I'm going through but you do not
    You say it will be alright but it will not
    I tell no one except my friends but some bugs try to find their way in
    Creeping and Crawling through my thoughts asking others what happened what's wrong
    begging others what happened what's wrong

    I dont want you to know
    you go behind my back
    asking friends this and that

    You dont care if I want you to know
    You badger my friends until they spill
    My friend tells me want had happened

    And I feel raged
    ''How could you, why?"
    I thought we were friends
    the thought going around in my head

    The reason you shouldn't know is because you can't keep secrets
    adults find out a call to a parent
    do you know what happens if my mom found out
    no you do not
    for you simply dont care
    keep your mouth shut

    There's no one to turn to when I'm simply troubled
    for no one could know
    or I'd get in trouble

    So I keep in all my anger in pushing it aside and thinking
    "Tomorrows a new day"
    But I'm wrong

    For someone I'm angry at get's praised
    I simply burst into rage
    I scream and shout
    holler and cry
    other things start to happen
    but I simply dont have the time

    No one loves me I think
    You may call it jealousy but I do not
    I'm not really sure if it is or not

    One day I came to conclusion
    End it all










    I then simply grabbed my neck
    gentle and firm
    then It got tight
    I started to lose grip of the Earth
    and see the light

    but something stopped me not my friends
    simply I heard if you kill yourself you'll go to
    Hell.

    So I stopped and thought some more
    raged inside I didn't talk to anyone
    but then me and the guidance teacher
    had a talk.......