Thoughts From a Troubled Time

• Artist: Buffy_the_Vampyre
• Description: This counts as poetry, because poetry doesn't have to rhyme. I found my notebook! This is from a few year ago, I was very depressed, I won't go into specifics, but it was a very troubling time for me. I was actually considering suicide during this time, but luckily, I got help. It gets sorta desperate at the end...
• Date: 01/01/2009
• Tags: thoughts from troubled time

I sit in the corner
Where the light can't reach
And let my mind buzz
Buzz, buzz, buzz quietly with all these thoughts
And let my ears ring, ring with the stillness of the air
The silence of the room, the emptiness of the world
For though its filled with motion, with noise, with people,
I've never felt so alone, so hopelessly alone.
For I can see vividly into my soul
And it's not a pretty picture
The one painted by my blood, my dark, dark blood
Seen only by me
Known only by me
And I've heard the music
The music that plays in time with the slow, rhythmic beat of my heart
thump-THUMP, thump-THUMP, thump-THUMP
Again and again, with each pulsating beat it grows stronger and stronger,
Louder and louder, heard only by me, felt only by me.
And I don't think I can take it any longer,
With every breath I take my struggles grow
And it's choking me, holding me down
But I just have to live with it
Live with it until I can find the way out of this labyrinth
Out of this labyrinth called life.

emo