• Nothing But The Worst

    You don’t know how I feel
    The anger that courses through me
    The sorrow that makes it hard to deal
    The fright on which I blame everything

    I’m so afraid that you’ll be gone
    That I don’t think of what I do
    And I know that it’s so wrong
    I never wanted to hurt you

    Because you made things better
    You made me happy
    And with every letter
    You think I’m lying

    What reason have you
    To believe what I say
    Everything I do
    Makes you think there’s no way

    I know what I’ve done
    I know I should have said no
    Yet even as you run
    I wish you wouldn’t go

    With you I felt so safe
    I didn’t have to be scared
    And with every single day
    I knew how much you cared

    Who am I to hurt you
    To toy with you like this
    Why can’t I stop what I do
    God, I miss your kiss

    But I have no right to want you
    To ask for this again
    Because I don’t know who
    Can stop who I am

    Someone who hurts others
    Who seems not to care
    And with every summer
    I feel the loneliness in the air


    Everyone will leave
    No matter the promises they make
    I wish my mind was a sieve
    I could throw these memories away

    But if I did that could I live
    If I didn’t remember you and I
    I don’t know what I wouldn’t give
    To go back into time

    Because now even I
    don’t know who I am
    The real me wouldn’t do that
    Especially not again


    And for once I’m scared of where I’m going
    Of what I’m starting to be
    I’m so used to knowing
    That it terrifies me

    I don’t know what to expect
    I don’t know how to get over things
    Is this cause for regret
    I’ve never been more certain of anything

    But I know I can’t do it without you
    As a friend if nothing else
    I’ll understand if that’s something you can’t do
    After all, I deserve nothing but the worst from you