• There is a haze, a veil never lifted from my eyes, something only built on lies, and now I’m the one who cries?
    No, that’s not the way it is, this just isn’t how it ends, I just can’t sit here and talk to friends.
    So I break and pray, never caring for today, never hearing what you say, why should I? You're invisible...
    So I'll cast a stare towards tomorrow, never giving what others cannot borrow, and I'll say it once and sing it twice, you're inconceivable...
    The thing I cannot give, the thing you tossed away, it's a piece of me that no longer lives, it’s just a shadow from that day.
    A heart long forgotten, a love that has now turned rotten, the taste is so bitter sweet, the sound hums to an awkward beat.
    And you'll forget me, I've forgotten you, I know it'll never be, I'm damn near over you.

    Somehow I lose myself, never remembering not to kill myself, never forgetting to hurt myself.
    Sometimes I scream, sometimes I cry, sometimes I dream, and in there you die.
    No, hate is not my master, sorrow is no longer here, and still my heart beats faster, anytime you are near.
    So maybe I haven't changed, I can't forget the way things were, but I am starting to rearrange, because I'm almost over her.

    Feeble and weak is what I am, I keep telling myself not to give a damn, that it was all just a sham, but the pain still lingers...
    My chest feels heavy just looking at your smile, haven't seen it in a while, and still I'd run for miles, just to put a ring on your finger...
    Strange how I say these things, it just seems like I've fallen from broken wings, and now I'm talking about wedding rings, I've never felt so confused.
    You torment me, you haunt me, you never leave my mind, and everytime I think of you the same old pain ensues.
    I don't know how you do it, the way you forget me makes me feel like shh... It just isn't fair...
    I try so hard to tell myself I'm better, I try so hard to find someone else, and still I sit here and read your old letter, I know there is no one else.
    I've said it once and sang it twice, I swear I'm over you, and still it seems I can't escape this vice, I know it isn't true.

    I can make believe and fake it like the best, I can dance and sing through this unholy little test, I can hide my tears and wear a mask as well as all the rest.
    And still I can't escape the truth of it all, I try not to fall, and yet I still wait for your call.
    I am torn apart, I tried to throw away a broken heart, I tried to make a brand new start, and somehow it came crashing down on me.
    So now I'm vexed, feeling like I'm constantly on trial, wishing I had the chance to see your smile, wishing I had cherished it while...

    Maybe this is my recovery... Or maybe it's just denial...