• somebody please give me a reason not to just kill myself. im never going to find a person to love, im never going anywere in life. im stuck in a circle, i cant get out. i cant posibly get my math, science, and journalims grades from a 20% to a 60% in 30 days. im trying so hard, my brain feels like its just going to turn into mulch and burst out through my ears, i look at myself in the miror and all i am is a discusting blob of ugly fat. but im so scared, if i die what will my parents do? what will the few friends i do have do? what will my family do? what would my grandpa think of me for just giving up? somebody please help me, somebody please show me some kind of love! PROMIS me you'll never just disapear, move away, or leave at all! somebody hear me! its like im stuck in a sound proof room and when i walk out im over whelmed by fear and guilt so that i cant just tell people what im feeling. somebody be that person that would pull me from the edge when i jump that will smack the gun out of my hand when my finger begines to squees around the trigger. tell me no when i just deside to stop eating, throw the pack of cigerets into the fire when i even think of giving in. somebody who can look through this mask, somebody to just tell me itll' all be ok....