• I cant call this vacation, nor can I call it home.
    I’m away and yet I’m not.
    I’m whole and happy yet she’s gone and I’m sad.
    She’s always been the big part of my life.
    And now miles and miles separate us.
    I was happy to have a lil sis and swore to be with her.
    Now I’m given a choice and so is she.
    She remains while I move.
    We’ve never been apart like this.
    She says she’ll be fine and so do I.
    I never knew it would be this hard to say goodbye and part.
    I hold her hands and do my best not to cry.
    She stands there in front of me asking “Are you ok?”
    I smile and wipe my tears and say “yes, all will be fine.”
    When I know that I will sit in her room and ball.
    She leaves soon and I’m trying to be strong,
    Yet I want to curl up and ball my eyes out.
    Its morning and we’re driving up for her flight.
    We’re here out in front of her flights gate
    We say our goodbyes.
    I keep telling myself that this is just a vacation
    That I will see her again here soon.
    That this is a small parting,
    But I know its not, its not a small parting
    Its not a vacation, its not a home.
    It never will be until she’s here with me.
    Little sister and big sister together since day one,
    Now to part on each one’s journey.
    Miles apart from each other.
    A bond that is so strong,
    Its heartbreaking to see what might become of it.
    I’m frightened and scared to part from my lil sis
    What to do to stop the water falling from my eyes.
    I have no one to comfort me.
    No one here to tell me it will all be ok.
    All the years of baby sitting and playing.
    The times when we were at the park playing tag,
    Swimming at the pool and looking at the cute puppies that we saw.
    All these thing are now ordered to change.
    Now I baby sit none and I sit here alone.
    I sit at the pool wish she were here to play with me.
    The cute puppies walk by as I sit there and watch,
    And I think about how she is doing and what she’s doing.
    Little sis I wish you the best of luck with out me there.
    I’m always here for you and I’m listening.
    Just remember to hug Ruby and I’ll be there to hug back.
    I love you lil sis
    Remember that and I’ll never be away from you.