• I wish I could of seen you
    As you left my door step
    I wish I hadn’t did what I did
    I wish you would have had hurt me instead

    That day, tears had slide down my cheeks
    as I looked at my phone
    seeing your name flash on the screen
    made my heart turn to stone

    I cheated, I lied
    How could I do this to you
    I made our relationship
    Unloving……untrue

    While I was in his arms,
    last night
    I thought of your face
    As he held me tight

    I didn’t know what I was thinking
    I didn’t know what I did
    But all I know is that now,
    I feel like s**t

    A few minutes later
    I hear a knock on my door
    My eyes widen
    My stomach drops to the floor

    Letting you in
    I look at you , to see what I see
    I wish I could of seen you
    Even though you saw me

    You smiled at me
    And hug me tight
    And whisper “Merry Christmas” in my ear
    while I struggled not to cry with all my might

    Then out of now where
    You pulled out a ring
    And you smiled broadly at me
    “This where I spent all my savings.”

    Thinking about how hard you had worked
    Sweat sleeking down your forehead
    Instead on spending it on yourself,
    You bought your cheating girlfriend a diamond ring instead.

    Tears filled my eyes
    Putting me in a sad mood
    I had to tell you know
    The whole truth

    After, as you stormed out of my apartment
    The winter air hit my face hard
    I wish I could take everything back
    Start a new start

    I ran after you, calling your name
    Knowing nothing would be fine
    Till a car came speeding down main street
    At the same time.

    I screamed, then fell to my knees
    As I saw your body fly through the air
    Seeing it fall onto the snow
    I ran to it in fear.

    Seeing you laying there
    I took your arms as I knelt
    Knowing you wouldn’t hug me back
    Even if you were undead

    Now as I sit here at your grave
    In my mind I say what I said
    I wish I could of seen you
    Unlike the car did.