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  • Artist Info: 2020 update:<br />
    well it's been a while since I've seen friends online here though it looks like a few randomly still get on.<br />
    This site has well hit the deep end of wow the market is still totally screwed up...<br />
    I don't know if they will ever fix it, if they don't I doubt they will find many new members that will stay.<br />
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    Health is concerning and so I'm more likely overly cautious about this year... <br />
    However, not much in my life has changed other than some family get together/holidays that have been totally cancelled.<br />
    It is to be expected. <br />
    Currently doesn't have a stable job however have taken a few more simple ones which I have got paid for a few drawings... <br />
    and that I've been working more on improving my art...<br />
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    Most of my friends have kids now and so I don't get to talk to them much, understandable since everyone is busy...<br />
    I've tried to make time for friends but it just never happens, either a lack of a ride, distance, or just not knowing what to say anymore...<br />
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    -Married back in 2014<br />
    -after my husbands cat died I just really have thought of having kids but the testing to go along with my health issues have been a concern and not only that well I want nothing to do with a hospital till the covid19 is gone...<br />
    besides I've been having sharp pains in my side and high liver enzymes... not sure if it's even practical anymore... I doubt the people I know will look here and read this but I guess there is a slight hope of wanting someone to talk to again...<br />
    I keep trying to message people and either I don't get a response or it's just simple how are you doing posts...<br />
    nothing new or changes here...<br />
    already had to deal with 3 deaths this year... which isn't as many as I had to deal with directly the year after I got married... 11 deaths was way too much for me... and my thyroid health plummeted that year<br />
    I can't cope with that kind of stress anymore... but I also seem to need someone to care for... when my husband's cat passed<br />
    I brought one of my kitties from my parents house to our place, and she has helped<br />
    however I know that I may not have her long, her sister passed this year and her brother died years ago, she still has one brother and a nephew kitty still at my parents<br />
    but they are senior kitties and the nephew is nearly a senior...<br />
    I don't know it's going to be hard to cope, she got really fussy when her sister died... I gave her some of my beanie babies and it really seemed to help my kitty, she hugs and cuddles them...<br />
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    blah... live, this year, and so many things just hasn't felt right in years ... <br />
    dang being such a worry wort...<br />
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    hmm the message below is old, I can't remember as to what all I was thinking of or whom but I liked the way I wrote it so I'm leaving it:<br />
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    Wow, I've been thinking a lot.<br />
    mostly about the past <br />
    sigh... kind of wish I could repair something that broke, something like a friendship which was broken into clear glass shards but there isn't any way to without it showing the cracks like ice on a lake melting away it can't be placed the exact same way again...<br />
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    10/8/2011 sweatdrop
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