yeah.. i've been thinking..for like the past half hour actually. Maybe longer.. but what i've come to is that i'm thinking too much. strange? yes. But wait, there's more!
Right, so what i've come to is well it's away to make myself unboring. And un-un[screw you, i'll use double negatives as i please]boring. I mean honestly, ******** i'm even gettiong annoyed with me. MY only obstical is who i already am, i mean.. i want to be a different person, but nto someone i already know [cough, cough] and not someone who's completely fake.
So there, i also wanna liek someone. And in order to do that, i need to meet more people, and in order to do that, i have to ditch 'taylor'. well not ditch, more modify and fine-tune, but you get what i mean [i hope.] so yeah.. and i'm ditching all opinions and s**t, i mean like.. basic stuff i'll keep, but i'm staying open to people, like i'll forget grudges and s**t.
so anyway, i juat have to be more fun.. which i can be...and alil'more outgoing, which i again, can be. i have to talk more, and put myself in more situations.. so yeah. can't wait.
hmm.. so in class, on monday, i'm so talking to that guy. the one with redish hair, tall, wears a hat, pretty cute. i'm gonna just walk up and be all "hey," and like "i see you all the time, but i can never think of your name, weird huh?" or soemthing a little less loser ish. but i mean come on, i'm a work in progress, i've like almost never had to make friends in my life. people just make friends with me, or i make friends with a friend's friends.
heh and i'll talk to brad too. because he's fun..and johnny. yeah. heh i'll be social. crazy.
...oh right, i ment to add, isn't it weird when you suddenly reaslise something about someone? like you think they're cute, with a few quirks, and then you suddenly talk to someone else who knows them and you find out that you've just been being wird, and thet they're actually totally different. It just kind of wakes you up and tells you 'hey, they're not quirky, they really are just geeky, and not even a good geeky.'
.!conoclast. · Fri Sep 22, 2006 @ 10:22pm · 1 Comments |