okay so here it is, hidden in a place where no one will find it because anyone and everyone i regularly interact with stopped coming on gaia years ago. sick, i'm pro. i've come to the conclusion that right now i am far too self involved to get involved with anyone. especially after the sad state that most of my relationships end in. buuut i really want to get laid. 'cause it's been a while. [love that no one's reading this so i can get to the point.] anyway i plan to have things happen with phill, even though that ship sailed a looooooooong time ago. it could still happen, and apple pie would probs applaud me because even his little sister has beaten him to the post. though i am still interested in graham. but i know that'll never be anything real. we'll meet at parties and maybe i'll eventually take him to a rave or something, and maybe we'll go all zombie and eat each other’s faces. but it will never be anything of importance. i feel like relationships have gone out of style. or maybe matteo just broke me. i'm not sure. i just don't feel like anyone can be truly happy with someone else. there's too much insecurity when you should feel stable, and too much stability when they're ******** melody behind your back. as well as various other people. as well as friends too. when you get so close to someone, they know all there is to know, get bored, and move on. and i'm done with that. i'm done with love. and i don't mean that in a stupid way, i just mean that i don't want to, it's too much hassle. i'll take a vile of k and a place to dance any day. maybe i'm wrong, and this will all change soon knowing me. but for now. for now i'm done with it. i'm happy with just doing my own thing, bouncing between friends i know, but don't know. i like that. i like weird situations, and random adventures. i like that i'm finding my spontaneous side, and i like that i'm turning into whomever i'm turning into. i know that DJ and myself will never be more than friends. maybe not even friends with summer, and him switching schools and all. and that's part of this. either way, i love me. and i think that's all i need. oHHHH AND I NEED JORDAN TO ******** OFF 'CAUSE HE'S ******** DRIVING ME CRAZY. he smokes all my cigarettes.. even though he dosn't smoke so they're wasted, and dose all my drugs, even though i don't give him permission. he just goes in my bad. i REALLY ******** HATE HIM and need him to just go die. i've been tryyying to be nice. but it's not working anymore. so, "******** you! love, taylor." Ps. i read some facebook note he tagged me in and almost puked, wtf. why is he posting s**t like that? it's DISGUSTINGGGGG.
graham is pretty sexy though. like "omg why do i know you???!!!" attactive. s**t son.
xoxoxox taylor n___n
.!conoclast. · Sat Aug 01, 2009 @ 01:48am · 0 Comments |