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------My friend Phoebe started reading this book. I was sharing some of my favourite entries to her, such as Pencils, some of the Until Next Time works and, some poetry. As I dug deeper into my past in this book I found myself searching for a certain entry. I remember writing it, the contents in it but I can't seem to find it. A part of me now doubts that I had even ever wrote it to begin with. So here I am now.

------It took place in the winter time. When I used to go to Lehman College and my best friend Edgenis and I took night classes together. There was a lot of things we did together and I was really really really in love with him back then, hence why you'll find a lot of entries with him in it back then. We didn't end in a sour note, time and distance just grew us apart. Part of it I blame myself but there was nothing I could have done. At least thats what I thought.

------We had just gotten out out of Roman History and it was 8pm at night. It had been snowing all day but at night, the snow had stopped. Because it was night time, there was less campus security. The soccer field was ladened with snow and it was convexly dug into the earth. So we slid/sled?? down the hill but the snow hadn't hardened into ice so some of it gotten into our shoes and into our socks. He made a dirty joke. Something about how it feels nice stepping into virgin snow. I laughed and shook my head. I told him I always wanted to make a snow angel, because I had only ever seen them on TV and books. So we made one on the soccer field. He helped me get up and I stared into our creations, I swear they look better on screen. Or maybe it just didn't look good because It was my first time making it and I needed practice. Either way we ended making some more. I stared into the night sky, it was coloured dark red because of winter time sunset. I could faintly see Orion in the sky. We started talking about stars and the universe as we swiveled our arms and legs back and fourth on the ground.

------I've actually met him recently before the pandemic happened. It was on a Sunday and I just happened to be around where he lives. So I called him, wondering if he was there and surely enough he was. I walked to his apartment which was about 20 city blocks away. It was weird and nostalgic entering his apartment after years of not being in contact with him. We caught up, and he apparently works for a lawfirm now. While I worked as a production sound mixer / post production sound editor. I found it funny that neither of us finished our Environmental Science degree at Lehman College. I reminisce the time where we both worked in the College's green house tending Cacao trees. But the distance and time had made us grow awkward towards each other.

------I could write an entire novel about us, and I almost did at one point. I've missed him, at least I missed the friendship we used to have. I still love him, somewhere somehow inside. I should probably call him. I hope he's safe during this pandemic.

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