so i figured it out
jacob is a narcissist.
i got lunch with my... "friend"? justin and he said jacob sounds like a narcissist.
so what do i do?
google the signs of a narcissist... duh.
tbh, almost wanted to cry when i was reading the symptoms, they were just
so spot on.
how could i not see this ?
once again, just another realization that is too late due to timing.
somehow, the days r getting easier though.
well, today was easier... i can't tell u what tomorrow or next week brings. confused
not sure if i already mentioned this in previous entries but i think i may be bi polar or something.
this is embarrassing for me to think/feel,
one reason being bc i just sort of self diagnosed myself. kind of cringe to just assume my brain is unbalanced bc of a bad couple months.
(i mean like, a BAD couple months, I've never felt this way in my own mind& body)
second reason being, it makes me feel weak and unlovable to have such a complicated mental illness and not just the average depression/anxiety i always thought i had.
(not saying having bi polar or any mental illness makes u unlovable, just me, personally)
talk2hand
without going into detail, s**t just aint right.
im 22y/o.. I've known my mind/body this long and never has it felt so.... different
this entry was kind of a blob of whatever.
im sorry these must feel negative. i only feel like writing when im feeling down.
maybe soon i can make a positive one..
actually talk about the love i have for my son
or about the time i saw past the anxiety and actually attempted to make a new friend
im trying, u guys
jacob is a narcissist.
i got lunch with my... "friend"? justin and he said jacob sounds like a narcissist.
so what do i do?
google the signs of a narcissist... duh.
tbh, almost wanted to cry when i was reading the symptoms, they were just
so spot on.
how could i not see this ?
once again, just another realization that is too late due to timing.
somehow, the days r getting easier though.
well, today was easier... i can't tell u what tomorrow or next week brings. confused
not sure if i already mentioned this in previous entries but i think i may be bi polar or something.
this is embarrassing for me to think/feel,
one reason being bc i just sort of self diagnosed myself. kind of cringe to just assume my brain is unbalanced bc of a bad couple months.
(i mean like, a BAD couple months, I've never felt this way in my own mind& body)
second reason being, it makes me feel weak and unlovable to have such a complicated mental illness and not just the average depression/anxiety i always thought i had.
(not saying having bi polar or any mental illness makes u unlovable, just me, personally)
talk2hand
without going into detail, s**t just aint right.
im 22y/o.. I've known my mind/body this long and never has it felt so.... different
this entry was kind of a blob of whatever.
im sorry these must feel negative. i only feel like writing when im feeling down.
maybe soon i can make a positive one..
actually talk about the love i have for my son
or about the time i saw past the anxiety and actually attempted to make a new friend
im trying, u guys
