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Book of Randomness!!!
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No longer crush...but Love
I've really liked this guy for a long time now, and I've been trying hard to tell him how I feel. I love being around him...at least in the mental context because he lives in a different state...destined to fail right? cry Well...I just love everything about him. He always makes me so happy, no matter how upset I am when I first start talking to him. I always look forward to seeing him again every weekend...and when I do see him, I instantly smile and get giddy! xd
Alot of my friends say that i'm obsessed...because I talk about him so much but...I honestly see it more of a I really like him so of course i'm going to think about him, but i'm not obsessed. We have a lot in common too, almost to where it's scary lol. He's so nice too...at least to me he is. He doesnt judge people (same as me!) and he cares when im hurt and stuff. He's always there for me and I want him to always be there...actually, i'd never tell him this, but I wish i could be by his side forever, in real life not just on the computer. I even get really sad when either he has to go or i do...i just think immediately without really thinking, "I wish we could talk forever, just never have to leave"... redface eek *laughs to self nervously* I must seem really creepy huh?
I wish I could put into words everything I love about him...put into words the way he makes me feel but i cant. I've known him for what...two years? And every day since the first day i met him...i knew i'd fall for him. People tell me i have this way of knowing things..like a psychic type of thing. there are events to prove it but im not sure...

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I wish i had the guts to tell him how i feel...but then i think about the fact he probably doesnt even like me. I feel like i'm just the chick that guys can be friends with easy because i act so much like them. I'm afraid of him rejecting me...and im afraid of the pain of loving someone so far away...loving him without knowing how they feel is a lot easier than knowing how we both feel and yet being too far apart...

I always think that it's better if i say nothing at all...

Fate brought us together...but fate is always so cruel...

The one guy i love with my whole being is probably the only guy i know who doesnt like me at all....

Fate's a b**** isnt it..? ('scuse da french but i couldnt find a better word)

*sigh*


i must seem wierd to you.


*shrugs*


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