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Trust takes months or years to grow, but only seconds to shatter. It’s not easy maintaining trust, and to tell who you can trust. There are no shortcuts in life, that’s what I’ve learned. You have to work your way through, and you have to experience tough times as well. I have some experiences, and some are privacy, but I can share the others with you.
When fourth grade was just starting, I met this girl named Elaine. I didn’t trust anyone easily that year, so I didn’t really trust Elaine. The bond between her and I grew stronger as the year progressed. Suddenly, out of no where, the real Elaine revealed herself. It broke the string that tied us so closely together, when the she lied to the teacher. From then on, I just saw Elaine as another jerk. It sounds pretty harsh, but it’s the truth.
Luckily, Melissa’s bond with me never broke, so far. We tried to stick together as much as we could. But still, I’m sad that we’re not in the same class. She never broke my trust, and unlike most people, she tried to earn more. Most people don’t care about others, and how much they trust them.
Sometimes building trust is harder than you could think of. Building trust on teachers and children are a whole new experience as oppose to building trust with our family. Some think they’re so cool, that you’re all outcasts that should bow down before them. Others allow new people in their life. All the same, trust can rupture fast.
People say some don’t even trust their self. It’s either they had a bad experience with trust or they can’t believe in anything they do. Sometimes when people say they can’t trust themselves, they mean like they can’t believe in their talents, what they could do for themselves, and what good something could happen to them. An example would probably be like: “I can’t believe that I’m writing this down!” Yeah, that’s what I mean.
Life isn’t fair. People make you do things you don’t want to do. They push you, they scream at you, and they harass you, just to do what they want you to do. They can trick you into doing it. One time, I read that this eighth grade girl (Suzanne) got drunk because her not-so-good-friends made her drink. She didn’t want to, but she also didn’t want people to think she would chicken out. Then, this became like a game for her friends. Whoever could make Suzanne drunk, wins. Suzanne cared about what others thought about her, and she didn’t overcome her anger. Later, Suzanne lost all her trust for anyone who claims that she had a friend.
Anyways, it’s your choice who you want as your friend. You’re you, and they are they. No one can change that, except for you. If people don’t want you as your friend, fine, just move on. Your life wouldn’t be ending without them. But in anything you do, don’t give all your hope in it; it could break your heart along the way.

*This was a long time ago when I wrote this, so there might be a few event errors, but I'm too lazy to fix them xd