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Vertical Horizon-Everything You Want

"Death isn't the worst feeling to walk this universe. Feeling un-needed, unwanted, and unloved is. Because of those feelings, we go suicidal."

My friends here are great, and my two best friends are even greater... but I can never be the same when I'm with my school friends. To me, I am Darkness, Death, and sometimes even the Devil himself.... (I once said that we cannot see ourselves as what we truly are but I've been told this wink )
All of them... I pity them... none of them are even matured... none of them don't know what's ahead of them.... They don't know many things others should know... how to tell the difference from their little world to the real world.
They all say I can never act like a kid (or so it seems....) They've never experienced what everyone experiences... but when they do, they won't have me.
No one knows this life. All of them seems to kid! They'll never know what's going on around them....
One of them seems so innocent, it's like you would want to give things to her, but she'll annoy you all the way when you die and still going. The other one is forgetful (sort of like me sweatdrop ) but never admits what she can't do. Hm... another isn't really so bad but she goes along with the other two and makes fun of me -_-' (not cool). One of them likes to scare me a lot (heck, she scares everybody!) Er... this one's not so bad... she's pretty shy, doesn't make fun of me that much (-_-'). And the last one, er... the next sentence will explain. Three things all of them have in common: 1) All of them call me wierd (even though I admited that to myself a long time ago, but still, no need to remind me! scream ) 2) All of them annoy by asking me for help too many times (God! Don't you guys ever use your own brains?! I have my own work, and i need my own brain to do it - I don't want to fry it by helping you guys!!!) and 3) They all tease me (Really, I just HAVE to change schools).
Alright, I'm feeling a bit emo ( eek ) right now, so I'll stop. And school friends, don't come to me yelling (like heck you guys are ever going to read any of my journal entries).