...heh. yeah.. this entry is so random..i'm serious. i'm about to talk about guys D: i mean.. i dunno. like i wa son the bus today, and there was this adorable guy that looked a little teddy guiger [sp]-esc, but with a little more acne, lighter hair, and duller eyes. but he was tall, maybe grade ten, and really cute. and i was all 'i'ma loser' cause i couldn't help stairing at him. I mean it's be a little weird to, but i was liek thinking of saying 'hey' to him or something when he shifted over to the back of the bus where i was standing. but i mean, would you honestly talk to someone who just up and said 'hey' to you on a bus?
and then there's cory in class, i'll talk to him a little. and i mena really little. like i'll ask him for valve oil, and we share music and all, and i asked him about a few things, but that's it. i can't innitiate a conversation. and whatever, i gues i think too much, but i'm too shy too.
i need to like branch out more, and be a ******** of a lot more out going. because people don't just walk up and say 'hey, wanna be my friend?' or just liek talk to you out of the blue. or at least not all that much.
and i mena i wouldn't mind having a few guy friends that we could eat lunch with and s**t, because as is, it's just becca, maybe mehak and i. we need more people. That's why next week i'm making us go sit withdifferent people and just put us outside of our comphort zone so we can adapt nad grow or whatever.
but honestly, i REALL need guy friends..
like i think i may cry.
...and i want to actually liek someone. because as is, all i can do is think people are hot and that's about it. thouhg oddly i think i like the guy from brass...brad. but i dunno, only a few days in, and he's not really.. that great looking. but whatever.
...must be more out-going. must be more out-going. [crosses fingers] wish me luck for monday!
.!conoclast. · Sat Sep 09, 2006 @ 02:12am · 5 Comments |