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It's funny. You think your over someone, you even tell them that you like them, and then WHAM. You fall back in love with them. This happened to me with one of my friends, and it's probably the stupidest thing that I have ever done, because there is no way in Heaven or Hell that we could ever be together. And because of that, there is something missing in my heart that I used to have. Him. He's the greatest guy ever, and his girlfriend is in love with him, as well as I am. It's strange how even when you know you can't be with someone, you still long for them with every fiber of your being. I am in an epic state of confusion. What do I do? Stay with my heart and love him like I do? Or just forget about him, let him go? I don't know. I honestly don't. I want to continue going with my heart, but it seems useless and utterly stupid. But that makes it hard to let him go. He said something to be during summer, which confused the HELL outta me, and I don't know what to do about that... please, tell me what to do. I wake up with hope, but only find tears and fake smiles around him. I think you know who you are. It's just, I love him. I really do. And I don't know what to do about it, and when ever I'm near him, I just use those fake smiles, hold back those tears, hold back running up to him and hugging him. I have tryed convincing myself that it's hopeless, but I know there's something between us. I know it.